blogging during lesson

yo! today our CMP teacher did nt come so we can hve our free time...bt no Facebook...haha..but anyways..yeah....7 rules to follow....if we dont obey one of them..teacher will lock all systems..so yeah....nth much 2 write....never blog 4 quite a long time ald! so yeah....sigh...yesterday went bowling..i did nt even strike lor.....*sob*..then i almost lost my balance 4 lots of times...ugh!!!and gt my new guy obsession.....KYLE XY!!!!so hot and handsome!!!!haha.....he is Matt Dallas btw...hehe.....so yeah...sigh...so bored...dun knw wat 2 write..........yada yada yada...............................and the guy hvnt replied me yet lor..............very bad.........sigh..................I wan go FACEBOOK!!!!!!!!!LOL!!!!!!!!!bt nvm lor...................so yeah....after this is Home Econ........die liao.........*sob*



ok....gtg..........



ttfn!!!!



catherinejoyloves!:)

A REBUKE!

ok...just nw gt my report book liao....at frst i was upset about it.....then during modern dance....people were telling me it was good and dun fret over it.....yada.....yada,.....so yeah.....then before PNP, I did nt want to go to church coz very pain mah! then...during PNP, God's presence was really there...I mean...........


Pastor Rose:let's all think of the good things the Lord had done for us.....in our lives.....etc....
and then I was like.....thinking....


and suddenly...I realised....there's a lot to thank for....

my life, my friends, my family, and the most important thing....he chose to call me as his own....I have a lot.....



and then...I feel like......I heard sth...or smeone said....

"why are u nt content about the things that you have? most people want to have what you have now..........ur marks....it was good..and yet,...u still complain....people are lower than you....and all that.......and also....body pain? Joy.........most people are not even able to walk....they are disabled.....but yet..they still thank God.....and you? and etc...."

then it was a big OUCH for me,.....coz its true...I hve been complaining and complaining....oblivious that ppl around me want to hve what I have.......and yet......I still...dare to complain and they can give thanks! and I dun really think i even deserved what I had gotten......

its like....I "forgot" about God and...all that.....but yet....


THE STEADFAST LOVE OF THE LORD NEVER CHANGE! IT IS NEW EVERY MORNING!


and he pours blessing upon blessing on me........


I should thank him instead of getting upset over those things!!!

thank you Holy Spirit for rebuking me!!!


and after PNP....a lot of people received a vision.......that a lot of people are coming to GFM worshipping the LORD and we are moved to a big place! and the Lord was like telling me......we should do sth about it first....which is to be the farmers in the harvestfield...to be fishers in the sea......


so yeah...


catherinejoyloves!:)

hurts

sometimes you don't realise how much you care for someone until that someone stop caring for you



three words.........its not wat u expect...... You.Broke.Me.


I'm broken like the waves on the cliffs...



If you were to ask how many times you ran through my mind, I would only say once because you never even left....


just because my eyes don't have tears....it mean my heart doesn't cry...... :'(


words are not enough to express the sadness and the emptiness and the loneliness I feel without you............so my tears express them for me....tears are word that our hearts could not express.......

I close my eyes...and dream of you and I and then I realised..there's more to life than only bitterness and lies....I close my eyes....I;d give away my soul to hold you once again....and never let this promise end.....


I wrote your name in the sand but the waves washed it away..... I wrote your name on my hand but I washed it the next day.... I wrote your name on a paper but I accidentally threw it away..... I wrote your name in my heart and forever it will stay..... ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

long time no post

yo guys! so yeah...dun really hve much to say....damn tired......yeah...Modern Dance was a pain in the you-knw-what....but good thng its still fun....so yeah.......I dun really knw what to say coz yeah....like I said....I am tired...If I continue writing...I will end up writing thngs that will make me sound so EMO.....but I guess I might become like one.NOT.hahahahahahahahaha....so yeah...dun really knw wat to write...........sigh................i wan rest liao....sort of rest lah........I will post maybe tomorrow or weekends.....then I will post long post:D


hehe...
and the internet connection was so ugh!!!!


so yeah....
I go frst luh...
bye bye bye pipz!!!


c yah wen i c yah!









I.Still.Feel.The.Same.




catherinejoyloves!:)

Sunday is NEAR!!!

*sob* *sob*

SUNDAY is TOMORROW!!!! I dunno...its like....i dun knw if I can do my dance...i mean....ugh! disaster..I practices dancing a dance I was not supposed to! I mean...its like...I can dance 1 until 3rd song....but then...they swapped the 3rd and the 4th...so i did practiced for the 4th!!booohooo!!!!!!! sob sob.....and one more reason is that..I ald made a deal...if by Sunday...HE still dun talk 2 me.....then I will probably give someone the chance....but it feels so sad doing it! coz....I dunno if its just that easy...so yeah..my friend said test the guy if he really like me.....if he can w8 4 two months 4 me, then he really like me...but if he can't then.....he is nt worth of my time....so yeah...if by Sunday(which is tomorrow) he still dun talk 2 me....I might consider.......the guy here.....but...i really........like......the...one....i....want...to.....talk...to...me.....by......tomorrow.......
so yeah! so PLEASE! TALK 2 ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!or else.....booohooo.....

bt....then...I said to this friend..that sometimes...I feel like....THAT GUY dun really like me.....
she said yeah......so i asked her of she agree......


and she said............




sort of..................




my heart broke into millions of tiny pieces that time.......that moment......its like................the world..............and my heart....................and THOSE dreams................they all shattered around me..........inside me............and I could not do anything but feel helpless................


not like I am blaming the girl.....................


but I need.....................assurance from THAT GUY.......................



then I will now whether to HOLD ON AS TIGHTLY AS I AM HOLDING ON NOW...............
or.......................



I hate to say this but......................



TO LET GO................................



so I hve to talk him before I make a wrong decision.......................

I hve gone too far to turn back now................


I have fallen tooo deeep already that it would be hard to go back again....................



so tell me......................



do you still love me????????



should I hold on? or let go(which i NEVER want to do)?????????????


and PLEASE answer me before SUNDAY!



and you told me once...that u feel like I don't care about you......but u r WRONG! coz I care....... and I care because....................................................



I.Love.You









catherinejoyloves!

a damsel in distress...another lost princess....

yo.....hi.....I like my new "name"...haha....."a damsel in distress...another lost princess"......coz i feel like...that is what I am...I aM juSt a dAmSeL in diStrESS.....jUst aN0thER L0sT prINceSS......waItINg aNd w0NdErINg .......wHeN wiLL a kNIgHt iN shINIng aRm0uR c0mE aNd rEsCUe mE fr0M aLL mY diStrESS................so yeah...and wondering who will that be....sigh.......I feel like I will always be a damsel waiting for something...even though I know that nothing will come....so I am just hoping...so yeah......poor damsel...poor princess.......will always just be bye herself........so yeah...if ever my knight in shining armour will come........then that's good....but...maybe.............sigh....I wont finish it..............


till the next post....
bye bye pipz!
c u .....



to my future knight in shining armour.....I will see u........


bye bye.....




yours truly,
a damsel in distress.....another lost princess......




catherinejoyloves!:)

You never said goodbye....love love love the song!

i so love the song!!catherinejoyloves!:)

ALICE IN WONDERLAND!

lol...just nw after i woke up...slack 4 while then read my book...haha...after that is bathe and then meet Jess at Westmall...we watched Alice in Wonderland......................3D....very nice sia....haha...love the movie...LOL....then yeah.....while queing up..saw some ppl frm my school...one of them is WeiHao...LOL......so yeah....idk wat else 2 write......someone was kinda flirting huh(??)....i hope not....hahaha.....bt he is just here in SG...i dun wan MY guy getting the wrong idea.....ha-ha...watever..........so yea.....Internet connection is so damn slow!!!!like....wth!!so yeah..i dun wan sleep yet lei..............:( not even sleepy u knw....sigh........why are parents unreasonable sometimes? sigh...........i really wan to talk 2 him.........................*sob*!!!!!!!!!!
he makes me happy.....like....no other.....hahahahaha......


so yeah.....guess this is all......ver lazy...sigh......so yeah...

bye bye pipz.....
till the nxt post!

so yeah...

P.S: The Guy's MINE and MINE ALONE!!!!!!!!!!



catherinejoyloves!:)

freakin' childish

sigh...ok...quite pissed today actually..coz u see ah, just now after church, we went to pstra Rose house coz her bdae mah......i really thought that THAT guy would nt be there...bt then...after i finish my food, i went to my fren's room....then only to see him cming out of the other room!!!hmph! why oh why???so pissed with him...he was so DAMN freakin's childish!!!!!!!I did nt even say his name..bt he said mine!!!!!!!childish sia....and he thought i still like hime??!!!!huh.......my foot lah!!!!!!!!! I would nt waste my time thnking about him...I would rather think(whuch is a very good thing) about the guy I REALLY like than HIM lah! hmph! nw i knw why my fren hate him! ugh!!!so yeah...wen Jess asked me out, i was glad to be outta there!!otherwise, I would hve ugh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!he is so immature, naive, childish!!!!!!!!ugh!!!he thnk he so handsome ah.....whoa!he handsome pigs like his arse lah! ugh!!so totally pissed!!!haiz.....ok...so yeah.........went to westmall with Jess..haha...ate desert...lol! nvm bout the spelling lah! haha...so yea....no school for a week...bt gt projects and LOTS of those HOMEWORKS!!!can't they just give us a break?????????????????????????????????????sigh..........................so bad!!!!!so yeah....idk wat else to say! I wan to talk 2 HIM(not the one who pissed me off)!!!!!!!!!!!!!



P.S: I so do not like the HIM who pissed me off...the guy from my church......



so yeah..gtg...
bye bye......
hugs and kisses......




till the nxt post!


xxxxxxxoooooooxxxxxxx

catherinejoyloves!:)

why is it like this? it is NOT supposed to be like this

why???
u say sth and wen i ask u wat is it.....u say its nothing.....
u keep thngs.....from me......
it hurts...............
u still put a wall in between us.....
can u just lower that wall???
please....for me?????
its like...sigh........
oh gosh......
it hurts wen u keep thngs from me.......
idk......it just sucks....
u dun suck.....its those thngs u keep frm me.....
they suck..........

so i gtg....bye bye.....

catherinejoyloves!:)

nth to blog about

yo!!!nth 2 write lah actually......haha.....nth much happens...actually quite a lot of thngs happened...very lazy=.=.....lol...so yeah lah......went to westmall with shary...went 2 the library....yeah...finished one NICE book! haha...so yeah.....then printed our pictures...NICE!haha....so yeah....idk wat else 2 write!!!!!!!!!!hahahahahahahahahaha.....


ok.....gtg liao......bye bye lor.....

till the nxt post......
muax
hugz and kizzez......



Tittle of the book: I heart you, you haunt me



kk.....bye bye!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!





catherinejoyloves!:)

Kayaking>>>>>>>>SUNBURN!!!!!!!!!!

just now went kayaking.......whoa sial lah...so hot sia!!!!!!!!!!!!!then lucky I partner with Nazift siol......or else...idk ald....at least he KINDA knows how to kayak lor....and wen we were carrying the kayak, 1e2 did nt do anyth eh.....sigh......1e1 all work up sweat leh......then Joanne really go and protest sia!!!cool sia....hahahahahaha........then yeah...Kayaking was FUN!!!!!!!!!bt then so hot.then its like.....now after kayaking..in the bus....most of THEM slept sia....haha....coz they all very tired mah...LOL...then after school went back to Shary place....we went there wif Wei Keong and Kai Kent to do theScience project..haha....then gt this scene:
Me: yeah......I so ugly...I knw...
WK: yeah...u knw only then knw ah?
Me: oh...I long time knw ald lah....
WK: yeah lah.....

so u see.....I am ugggggly!!!!!!!!!!



then checked FB....whoa sial...shucks man!!!!!!!!!what I saw there surprised me sia!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I dun need say lah....LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


haha........so yeah..i upload the pictures nxt tme....haha

I am so happy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



ok.........GTG..........bye.............
till the nxt post!!!!!




hugs and kisses for you my beloved......




ok...bye pipz.............


catherinejoyloves!:)

Pictures of today, in our hearts will always stay!1E1'10

here are the pictures of today!!!!!!!!!pls enjoy it!!!!!!!and if u gt problem coz i took stolen pictures of you all..I am so sorry......ok...tyty....enjoy!!!!!!!!










catherinejoyloves!:)

dedicated to my crying friends:)

catherinejoyloves!:)

PERCY JACKSON SON OF POSEIDON!!!

LOL!!!!!!!!!!!haha....just now CIP was so damn fun!!!!!!!!!!we leave school...and evrryone was like "1E1!!!!HURRY UP!!!WE WILL BE LATE!!!" so I rushed..and out of hurry..I left my wallet!!and of all ppl...it was Haziq who found it!!phew...bt at least he returned it to me!!!haha....so yeah...left school...then ate at McDonalds...I was hving that stupid stomach cramps and I thought I would nt be able to do CIP...so I took my medicine....and yeah...after a while....i was ok...lol...then yeah..instead of doing CIP...we took lots and lots of pictures!!it was so nice!!!!!!!!!!haha...then it rained so we went bck to McDonalds and ate AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!LOL......so fun!!!!!!!LOL........and then yea....lol....then went bck 2 sch...did nt even do anythng bt play and have fun!!!lol...........................then yeah....went to Westmall and watched PERCY JACKSON AND THE LIGHTNING THIEF!!!!he was ok.....handsome....bt I only liked him wen he was uner the water....lol...bt he was pretty hot.....haha........bt I dun thnk I like him....Nichelle has gt the hots for him....i thnk...lol....she is like so in love with him! haha......all the best! lol....so yeah.....then......nw dun knw wat to say.......Shary..dont cry na...I will always be here...whenever you need me or you dont....I will always stay by ur side and continue to be ur SBFF!!!!Jem.....ok....so yeah.....wag ka na din sad......I am here also:) so yeah.....

its so good.....I feel very happy! he is like...finally talking to me!I hope it never ends!!! he miss me!LOL....hahaha....yeah....ok...I dun wan to be do happy wen my friends are sad and down...bt I cnt help it! :D......geez.....



catherinejoyloves!:)

chello!

helo...long time no post...i mean..just a few days bt still lot of thngs ald happen lor....he is talking to me again!!!!!!!!!!I AM SO HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!hahaha......I really miss talking to him......and Lisa, since u knw him......nth....haha..lol....shary.....really sorry bout the news......i am sure she does not mean it.....it juts came out.......she will realise soon that she had hurt ur feelings badly.....so cheer up best! I am here as long as u need me ok? love yah best.......so yeah....I thnk I'm in love....lol....haha.....bt nvm about that....since he knws I love him...i thnk...haha....i hve given enough hints na.......if only....nah....u dun need 2 knw....lol...so just nw during MT class I was doin the chant in AVATAR the "eywa..eywa" thing and Lisa kept on laughing!!!hahaha....tomorrow gt CIP lei...we goin East Coast...damn far lei...bt fun coz i wif frens mah...I hvnt buy potato chips yet!!!OMG!!sorry!!!sigh....idk wat to say anymore....... kk...gtg..bye bye...till the nxt post!!!

Everyone asked me why was I smiling so much..without any reason..without any issue..no jokes cracked even..you know what I answered..I told everyone..I was thinking of you...

You say you want to punish me for my mistake..have you ever thought..that being away from you..is the worst punishment ever I can get..



catherinejoyloves!:)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY AUNT!

ok...i nw at my aunt place...just nw went to churh...practiced for our skit...performing tom..very nervios!!haha..bt anyways..yeah..idk wat else to say..oh yeah...spent hours wif jemiah just nw....it was ok hanging out with him...haha...frts guy i hang out with here in SG! haha.............he is so previleged.....yeah right....haha....well....ok...yeah...he lent me his library card...so he let me borrow 2 books.....ty lots Jemaih!s yeah..........idk wat else 2 say.......bye bye maybe....



ok...bye bye pipz.....i gtg liao.....kk.................




i dun thnk any guy would still like me......nobody likes me..............



I am fat and uggggggggggly!!!!!!!!!!!!




I knw God created me this way.....so sorry God...............





ok.....yeah...I really have to go....

gonna eat cake ald.....



bye bye:)

catherinejoyloves!:)

FML!!!!!!!!!!

ok...so many things happening...I gt 35/50 for Science.....then 22/40 4 my maths....yeah...i knw...sux...and then..this morning..gt this one teacher...my friend from other class's form teacher hit my head accidentally(I HOPE!) with his bag which contained his laptop....so yeah....damn pain...haiz...then modern dance....well....PITA* sia!!!!!!haiz...its like we had to do lotsa splits!!!!!!and many other stuff which was just so tiring........and then.....came home....gt cell group....and the message kena me lor...haiz...then open my FB....to see very bad things! haiz....he dont talk 2 me properly..din even say hi!!!!!!!!!!!!!just...do u even knw how much it hurts???????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I feel like crying!!!!! I dunno wat to do ald...............wats going on????????????????




FML!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



"You are not talking to me properly..for you I am the culprit today..do you remember..the way I use to dream about me n you..together..our future..I miss you in every moment..when ever I think about those dreams..I wish u were near me..with me..you have got no idea..about how much I miss you..and believe me..these dreams..bring tears in my eyes..n I cry to have you in my arms..I Miss You"





catherinejoyloves!:)

Im back!

yo pipz! I am back! so yeah..haha...just now went for CCA...lol...it was just so funny!! I mean the grl called Ker Hui(nt sure bout the spelling)...she could nt balance herself..she just kept on falling!!!as in!!we laughed until crazy!!then yeah..btw..for maths right...the new teacher is like so wat eh..his explanations are just so complicated!!!!!!!!!!!as in!!ugh!!!so yeah....

Geography test:
so yeah...i gt 28/30!!!!happy!!!at frst i gt 27..then i counted...i gt 2 mistakes only..so i count and i gt 28..so teacher changed lor...yehey! I calculated my geog percentage and I gt 87.4%!!!!!haha....i am happy!!!!!lol the whole class pass!!!!!!!!!!!!yehey!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

History:
sadly, one of myclassmates failed...sad.......i gt 28 also!!!!and i calculated my history percentage and gt 87 point sth sth...yehey!!!!I hope its A1!!!!!!!!!I did nt expect it man!!!


bt sad..still gt Literature, Maths, Science and English to go....haiz.....


I wan to pass all my subjects!!!!!!!!!!!




yeah......I dun knw wat else to write...................hahahahahaha.........

PRAYING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!




ok....bye bye....
GTG.....

till the nxt post!!!!!!!!!!!
love yah guys!!!
muax....xoxocatherinejoyloves!:)

random song...alice in the wonderland

catherinejoyloves!:)

A LONG POST!:)

it has been a very long time since I last posted...I am so sorry guyz...its just that common test 1 had just finish...so yeah...it was ok...Maths and Science...well...FOR ME was quite hard...I mean...some questions lah....so yeah...it was still ok...I am PRAYING that I will pass the exams....I really want to...so yeah...nth much to say as I hve ald forgotten wat I want to say..well yeah...

Friday:
EL paper 1...easy..I wrote more than 500 words i thnk...then after that was Geography...quite easy thank God:)....

Saturday:
went to church 2 practice for our skit......after that went to pstr. Romel Guevarra concert...saw one guy...quite hot lah....hahahahahahaha..the took pictures with my sistah...lol

Sunday:
church...then...home....then rested...then library...then went to Emman's house...then pstra Rose house...came home late...revised 4 Maths and History...

Monday:
Maths paper followed by History paper...good thng History was quite ok...LOL....so yeah...I woke up late that monday due to late revision.....sigh.......then had my afternoon nap for 3 good hours!!!!hahahaha

Tuesday:

hmmm....woke up v.late!!!!then bathed 4 just 5 min!!LOL.......bt i hvnt tell my parents yet!hahahahaha...so yeah......after test...did some doodles....guess wat I hve written through the entire paper???HIS NAME!!!!!!I just can't forget man!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sigh...so yeah...that was all that happened wen I did nt blog......hahahaha



well......I cannot forget lei....he never fails to make me sleepless at night....he never fails to make me smile just thinkng of him......my friends....they are like affected for wat is happening to me...I dun wan them to worry about me......I try to hide the pain, the hurt I feel bt its just nt enough to convince them I am fine...so now wat? Shary and I...same dilemma....twins talaga..........



we want to forget...the more we said we will forget...the more we think of the guys we like(or ****)...sigh.....guess its just hard.......


I wonder.....had he forgotten about me as well? or does he still think of me like I think of him?sigh.....why is this feeling so complicated?????I just can't stop thinking of that guy....I miss him...........and here my mom is...singing....do not lose hope...hahahahaha.....so yeah..guess this is looooong post ald...oh yeah..just nw went Shary house...haha...so yeah.she helped me change blog template!!thanks bestfren....love yah!!hahaha...


get ready for tomorrow's argument Shary...hahaha


ok....so long ald...bye bye.....GTG.........

till the nxt post!!!!!!!!!!:)


catherinejoyloves! :)