Joy's dilemma

well...I am like caught up in a little dilemma here.....I decided 2 forget about him...I tell myself..."forget about her idiot...u ald said u hve made up ur mind and want 2 forget him...." bt my other side is saying "r u sure??is that really ur decision? hve u really made up ur mind?" then i ask myself"have i?"...coz I just find myself thinking of him evry now and then....i thnk of him b4 sleeping...wen i wake up in the morning i thnk of him...and i always wonder...why?is this wat "the thing" does 2 ppl? coz.....Idk.....I sort of crave to hear frm him..bt I tell myself that maybe to forget is right...bt....wat if u cnt forget him? coz like i said.....he just comes inside my head evrytime....i just cannot stop thinking bout him......i just cant stop it.....i cnt blame myself....bt....i tell myself 2 forget him..bt his memory keeps coming insde my head...bt....there's sth...........in me...............why is it that...........i allow it to happen? is it bc0z I also like the thought of him inside my head? is it??is it???????haiz......oh gosh....did I make the right decision 2 forget? or I am just troubling myself??if I really cant forget and I am pushing myself so hard to do so...then I will be the one who will suffer right? c0z I cannot help bt to just accept and welcome the thoughts.....the more I push it away frm my mind...the more it comes back!and the more it tortures me!! sigh........................and the reason why i feel like gving up is coz...i thnk he dun feel the same way for me anymore......its like....i dunno.....i am nt sure if he still likes me...or not.....wen he talks 2 me again...I will ask him all these questions...its been troubling me...........



one of my definitions of love: love has gt a lot of definition that only our hearts can express.............................



p.s....i may be goin online for like...one week....coz exams are near....must revise......I will miss u guys.....love yah all.....muax.....hugz and kisses from me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



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