my feelings

catherinejoyloves!:)

Joy's dilemma

well...I am like caught up in a little dilemma here.....I decided 2 forget about him...I tell myself..."forget about her idiot...u ald said u hve made up ur mind and want 2 forget him...." bt my other side is saying "r u sure??is that really ur decision? hve u really made up ur mind?" then i ask myself"have i?"...coz I just find myself thinking of him evry now and then....i thnk of him b4 sleeping...wen i wake up in the morning i thnk of him...and i always wonder...why?is this wat "the thing" does 2 ppl? coz.....Idk.....I sort of crave to hear frm him..bt I tell myself that maybe to forget is right...bt....wat if u cnt forget him? coz like i said.....he just comes inside my head evrytime....i just cannot stop thinking bout him......i just cant stop it.....i cnt blame myself....bt....i tell myself 2 forget him..bt his memory keeps coming insde my head...bt....there's sth...........in me...............why is it that...........i allow it to happen? is it bc0z I also like the thought of him inside my head? is it??is it???????haiz......oh gosh....did I make the right decision 2 forget? or I am just troubling myself??if I really cant forget and I am pushing myself so hard to do so...then I will be the one who will suffer right? c0z I cannot help bt to just accept and welcome the thoughts.....the more I push it away frm my mind...the more it comes back!and the more it tortures me!! sigh........................and the reason why i feel like gving up is coz...i thnk he dun feel the same way for me anymore......its like....i dunno.....i am nt sure if he still likes me...or not.....wen he talks 2 me again...I will ask him all these questions...its been troubling me...........



one of my definitions of love: love has gt a lot of definition that only our hearts can express.............................



p.s....i may be goin online for like...one week....coz exams are near....must revise......I will miss u guys.....love yah all.....muax.....hugz and kisses from me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



catherinejoyloves!:)

Modern dance and some random stuff

haiz...so yeah..ok..just now in class.....may tinawag kmi na SLUT....lol....so yeah..just nw modern dance..the teacher sioa lah! ugh! she made us do so many things eh...we did dance(exerise watever!) for God knws how long...and also push-ups, sit-ups....for also God knws how long!and her voice is either too soft or too LOUD!here's an example:
teacher: do the extension on which count(she said that sooooooo softly)
someone: right
teacher: are you sure???!!!!do extension on wat count????
everyone: *stare*
teacher: ANSWER ME!!!!!!!!!!u dun knw the answer???start from the top!(now that was so LOUD)
so u see....she speaks too soft....
haiz.....so funny.....
and so we said...we will tell our teachers, "teacher....*ask a question*??
and also, "ANSWER ME!!u dun wan answer me, do from the top!"
hahahahahahhahahhahahah.....we will do that especially in maths class!!!!!!!hahahahahhahahahahaha.....so yeah....idk wat else 2 say!i gtg anyways..so yeah...bye bye pipz
love yah


muax
ANSWER ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
catherinejoyloves!:)

love these songs!!!!!!!!



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catherinejoyloves!:)

:)

ok..so jst now went to bestfriend's house:D....made the SJ show!!!hahaha...so yeah..u cn just watch it in our blog:Dso yeah.....very damn funny.......hahaha....i cannot say that here...so yeah...idk wat else 2 say..just nw went swimming........then yeah...was kinda pissed off with TWK.....haiz...also dun knw why...so yeah..dun knw wat else 2 say lei...nth much then................................I ald finished the book b**less:D....nice book:D.......the author's husband's name is.....ehem ehem...teehee..so yeah......idk na....except......I am in...................secret:D...bey bye pipz...love yah all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!muax muax muax.........



catherinejoyloves!:)

JINX TWINS

oh well...quite pissed sia...coz our English teacher ased us to do book review mah..then she said Wednesday(which is today) then must pass up..so I slept at like 12 midnight to finish it up...bt actually she would nt collect coz 2day no English!!!ugh!!!haiz...well...yeah...maths test gt 30/40...quite an improvement lor...well...me and Shary ald gt a name...we are the JINX TWINS!!!!we called ourselves jinx twins coz it sounds nice and we treat each other as twins..sometimes we even think that we are just Long Lost Twins born on different year and different time and everything....sometimes we think we are both reincarnated....lol...haha..twins in the past...teehee....lol..so yeah...then just now went to library to borrow 2 more books...yeah...nice...hehe.......just now modern dance very tiring(as usual)...so yeah....Monday and Tuesday no school so it was like so slack 2 come back 2 sch this morning...first period was reading..then after that was Science....very funny
Mrs Peng(the Science teacher): class...1 metre cube is equal to how many centimetre cube?
the whole class: *stare at her*
Mrs Peng: hey people......*repeat her question*
class:*silence**strare at her*
hahahaha.....it was like our minds was still on holidays....lol........
so yeah....I miss him sia.........................I like cannot stop thinking about him......
haiz.......ang hirap magmahal man!!!!!!well...yeah..idk wat else 2 say......................................so...bye bye.....
tty again nxt tme..till the nxt post


your sincerely,
catherinejoyloves!:)

swimming

just nw went to Chinese Garden for a swim..tired sia...haha...bt very fun..and yeah...i hvnt done that book review yet...bt I will 2mrw...yeah...maybe it wont be that hard..and heard a bad news...VERY bad news...bt not gonna say it...for sme reasons lah...bt haiz...i feel heartbroken wen i heard it....coz its about HIM mah...............so yeah.....nw I ald feeling sleepy bt nt gonna sleep yet...and waters went inside my nose!!whoa...now keep on sneezing...might hve flu soon..boohoo....yeah....so idk wat else 2 say...I asked my cousin about my previous post...the one about u knw...wat do u call that feeling...and she says that wen u feel all those thngs...the feeling is called l**e.....so yeah...haiz..................................why cant he undersatand that?I **** HIM!!!haiz....................................bye bye bye bye bye pipz.....
love yah all............GBY
till the nxt post:)


catherinejoyloves!:)

Today was a fairytale

Valentines Day

well..today is Valentines Day..bt no partner...what's worse? sigh...i dun thnk I should say that bt nvrmind...i will just say...well...we did not talk 2day coz he nvr go online mah...very sad sia....bt I messaged him and said Happy Valentines day lor...I thnk I am falling in l***................coz like I said..I gt a lot of "symptoms" already...u see...as in a lot...nvr talking to him somehw makes this "special(yeah right)" day sad and heartbreaking....haiz.....if he likes me why dun he just tell me? if he dun then why nt just say it? gosh!!!!L*** is soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo complicated!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!why????????????? anybdy gt any explanation or opinion or answer to that????????????????????????????????????????




A Valentines Day indeed....................
bye....till the nxt post



catherinejoyloves!:)

pictures..random

just some random pictures....just enjoy looking at them...I love u guys!!!especially...nah....i wont say...hahahahaha...bye bye....till the nxt post...whch is later maybe...byebye:)
catherinejoyloves!:)

a feeling called........

when you have this one person in your mind...

he is the first person in your mind when you wake up
and the last person you think of before you sleep at night
just thinking of him is like a soft lullaby that can make you
sleep soundly at night
just hearing his name makes your heart jump
and send butterflies flying around your stomach
thinking of him makes you smile
hearing from him makes your whole day complete
not hearing from him send needles piercing
your heart
makes it shatter into bits and pieces..
then you hear from him again and then
suddenly your heart automatically mends itself again
you just make your whole day complete by thinking of him
you just cannot stop thinking of him all day
you miss him everytime.........

what do you call that feeling?


catherinejoyloves!:)

i dun knw wt to put as title

anyways..just nw went to school..bt then left quite early..9:40...coz I had to go health promotion board..for check up and immunisation...so yeah..it was at Outram park..lol..so yeah..reached there...checked my height and weight...lol..i grew taller!!bt I gained weight!!*sob*....so yeah..then checked eyes..after that was the hearing test..then body test..u knw..they will check ur backbone and all those stuff..whch i am nt gonna say as it was pretty awkward..lol...so yeah..haha..then after that was immunisation..my left hand damn pain sia....super...so yeah..reached home..sleep frm 4:00-7:00.....quite long huh? yeah..so exhausted mah...well yeah...then lunch at w.mall...nice...haha...so wat else? oh yeah..Shary told me I gt 2nd to the highest for geog class test..happy!!I gt 15 out of 20..that should be ok lah..then yeah..idk wat else to say....

maybe this is all...
till the next post....
love yah guys esp....ahem...ahem....lol
hugzzzzzzzzzzzzz and kizzzzzzzzzzzzzezzzzzzzzzzzzz


catherinejoyloves!:)

I cannot do it...

I cannot forget you
You're always on my mind
Its not that I can't take it.
Its just that
I am worried...
what if you don't feel the same way as I do?
what if you don't miss me as much as I miss you?
I cannot even think of it.
You said you love me
Do you still feel that way?
What if you already do not feel that same way?
I miss you more each day.
I hope we can talk again the same way as we did before
Talking to you makes my day complete.
My day just seems so complete after just seeing a message from you.
I do not know what is happening to me.
But for the sake of IT, I would do anything
My friends are already noticing the change in me
they are saying I am like so EMO now
I am not like this before.
that is why I am trying to be as happy as I can
even though deep inside
my mind is full of things about you
your name, your words, everything
just hearing and seeing your name
makes all thoughts of you coming back inside my head
why do I feel this way?
is this the feeling called.........?????catherinejoyloves!:)

SQPS

just now went to my old school...Shuqun Primary School..its good to be there again lol....haha...talked to Miss Tia for like...30 min+....haha...then after that went to Claudine's house..btw, we went there as in we as Shary and Me....lol...good to be with her....sooooooooooo fun....hehe.....lol.....yeah...dun knw wat else to write...its good to be talking with him again.......that is why i miss him....haiz...bt at least he talks to me now....so good.........loves it.....Science class test gt 26 and half out of 30...distinction sia....haha...so happy...:D....yeeee!!!!!lol....haha....yeah....wednesday then gt class test maths...ugh....nvm...haiz...then thursday history...haiz.....haiz...haiz..guess that's all..gtg liao...bye bye....muax...
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo






catherinejoyloves!:)

HAPPY!!!

I am so super happy!!!!!I am not gonna say why...but super happy!!finally!!!!but anyways........yeah....yesterday still the same..went to church..escape frm the CNY thing...haiz....idk why.....and had my glasses changed...its blac!!!and it looks ok to me..i thnk...haha...bt i look good in it...nah...I've always look good(as if.......)....lol....nah...that was just a joke....haha.....well...just nw went to church...had youth cell..Jess was there!!!yipeee!!!and haiz...tomorrow gt school again....tired-.-......bt well...that's part of life...nah..then went 2 kua Jason house for lunch..but i did NOT eat...starving myself...just eat wen i am SUPER hungry......well...idk wat else to say.........


I MISS YOU......
lots and loads and tonnes of love from me!!!!!!
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo


catherinejoyloves!:)

shary and joy...always so happy together...but deep inside...they face those kind of problems....

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another image...


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surely the image says it all......



catherinejoyloves!:)

a long post

im sorry din post yesterday...so busy wif sch and all those stuffs mah..haiz...well...yesterday..my whole body was sooooooooo painful as I gt CCA on wednesday..we had 2 do like more than 10 times of stretching..and then jump like 100 times(a lil' exageration there)..hehe..bt still..it was so painful!!then thursday..I cannot even walk properly!!I was walking(limping)like some kind of weird..haha..bt anyways..yeah..after that gt swimming!ugh! haiz..then more body pain lah...haiz..then just nw after school was CCA again...not only was it physically painful..it was emotionaly painful as Shary moved to a different CCA...choir...haiz...IDk...ugh! and wen Yuen also quitted..so left only Yanni and me..bt still quite ok lah..so yeah..just nw ate a light snack b4 CCA..din hve time 2 digest..so wen we were doin the body stretches..my stomach was sooooooooooo painful....so I suffered from muscle cramp or sth like that..so yeah..my leg is so painful(thank you very much)....well...I believe wen i gt used 2 it..it will be ok ald...I SO TOTALLY HOPE SO!!! haha...heard bout sme kind of night performance frm the principal just nw...its on 23rd April i thnk..haha...just nw went 2 dorothy house...her bdae mah..lol...so we played Truth or Dare....damn fun!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!haha.....we were laughing our heads off like crazy!!haha....someppl hve 2 make confession..others were forced to call sme1 to say that they r hot!!lols....haha....oh yeah...i forgotten...just nw also during modern dance..we palyed "murderer"....super fun!!!!hahahahahaha....the forfeits will be done on wednesday i thnk...I told Shary it was a good thng she wasnt there...she would hve "cried"..the teacher said...one mistake do push-ups...and for the day, we did 20 push-ups...pain(thank you very much)...haha...well...haiz...yeah...super tiring..and yeah...haiz......I really miss you you know.....you are the first person in my mind wen i wake up and the last person i could thnk of b4 i sleep.....am i under some kind of love spell here? ha-ha....well..yeah...haha...gosh!!I M-I-S-S Y-O-U!!!!!!!!!and if only...impossible things can be possible...if only walls will be broken 2 make way for you and me......I MISS YOU! until it hurts........


catherinejoyloves!:)

if you love me.....

If you love me...
you will talk to me...
you'd be there If I need you(even if I don't)...
you would tell me that you love me...
you'd do anything to prove me that you love me...

I miss you...why?
I always think of you..
can't even get you out of my head...
anywhere I go..I would see ur name...
hear your name....its hard...
I can't stand knowing ur hurt...
coz of just an ordinary girl...like me...
I do not want to hurt you...
because....
it hurts me too...
knowing that you're hurt coz of me....
if you miss me...
tell me...
reply my message....
I cannot stop thinking of you....
Its hard to even forget about you...
like someone said...
its impossible......
sigh...
why?
coz I Love You.......
Love, Me

catherinejoyloves!:)

hey...

sorry did not post yesterday..been quite busy lah..haiz...test here...test there...but just now...stupid pig go and make me cry...hope i could talk to HIM and tell me how sad:(..haiz.....god!!!I MISS YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!everywhere I go I hear ur name...I see ur name in books I read.....gosh!!!please...talk to me.....................and I did not say that u r stupid...u wanted me to tell u that...i said ur not............i said u stupid for ehem...u knw it...u surprised me when u said yeah...do u even knw how that feels???that hurts!!!!gosh!!!wats happening to me? u hvnt replied my message yet....hve u completerly forgotten about me?erased me completely out of your life? if yes...tell me....so I will knw...if not...tell me too.....I miss you........................rest well.............................................................
catherinejoylovesyou!<3