Heartbreak

Hey people, I'm gonna be emo-ing for sometime from now... well, I'm so f-ing heartbroken! I mean, hello! who would waste a 6 month relationship just like that right?? Well, apparently, me and him....but I still love him! then I don't know why suddenly from I love you became Bye :( but like they said, it's not the Goodbye that hurts. It's the memories that follows that hurts. So true. What I did today, I woke up. I cried. I went online. He did too. Then when we were talking, my g-damn tears just would not stop flowing! It's like, what the h*** man??? Then after the conversation, I cried again. Then I logged out after a while. Then after that, I went to the room. Listen to music. Damn music reminds me of him! Then I only ate chicken for both breakfast and lunch. No rice no everything. Then after that, bathe. Went online again. After a while, got tired of all that, I went back to room, listened to music.. damn tears! Then cried myself to sleep. Again. Then parents came back from work. Dad said my eyes swollen, asked if I had headache. I said no. He asked me where the pain is. I almost blurted out, "My Heart, dad"... but fortunately, managed to control myself. I just smiled. Then yeah. Sigh... I don't know what to do already. I'm like so EMO :( I don't know until when. :'( Just keep crying. MY friends said I need to let it all out. I said that's what I am doing! Sigh... First serious boyfriend. Longest some more... Sigh... I wish moving on was just that easy... It's not. :(

I know you're reading this. I'm sorry if my posts hurts you. Don't blame yourself. I love you. I still do. I'll never stop. Even though it hurts. I'm amazed on how much I still love you with all the pieces of my broken heart.

catherinejoyloveshim! :(