Heartbreak

Hey people, I'm gonna be emo-ing for sometime from now... well, I'm so f-ing heartbroken! I mean, hello! who would waste a 6 month relationship just like that right?? Well, apparently, me and him....but I still love him! then I don't know why suddenly from I love you became Bye :( but like they said, it's not the Goodbye that hurts. It's the memories that follows that hurts. So true. What I did today, I woke up. I cried. I went online. He did too. Then when we were talking, my g-damn tears just would not stop flowing! It's like, what the h*** man??? Then after the conversation, I cried again. Then I logged out after a while. Then after that, I went to the room. Listen to music. Damn music reminds me of him! Then I only ate chicken for both breakfast and lunch. No rice no everything. Then after that, bathe. Went online again. After a while, got tired of all that, I went back to room, listened to music.. damn tears! Then cried myself to sleep. Again. Then parents came back from work. Dad said my eyes swollen, asked if I had headache. I said no. He asked me where the pain is. I almost blurted out, "My Heart, dad"... but fortunately, managed to control myself. I just smiled. Then yeah. Sigh... I don't know what to do already. I'm like so EMO :( I don't know until when. :'( Just keep crying. MY friends said I need to let it all out. I said that's what I am doing! Sigh... First serious boyfriend. Longest some more... Sigh... I wish moving on was just that easy... It's not. :(

I know you're reading this. I'm sorry if my posts hurts you. Don't blame yourself. I love you. I still do. I'll never stop. Even though it hurts. I'm amazed on how much I still love you with all the pieces of my broken heart.

catherinejoyloveshim! :(

Happy Birthday to me!

Well, first I would like to thank all those who greeted me on my special day! love you guys! :D and thank God for this another year... when you're fifteen somebody tell you they love you, you gonna believe them.... well, I was turning 15 when he told me he loved me... and speaking of him.... sigh..... I did not get any greeting from him and it totally killed me! :( as in inside... My friend told me to be happy that even though he did not greet me, hundred people did... but I said.... it's so incomplete.... it's like, a puzzle... without that ONE missing piece, the puzzle can never be whole... there may be thousand of pieces, but that ONE is just as important as the rest.... some more he is one of the most important.... at least for Joanne I understand.... she's in camp... but.... I don't even have any idea where he is.... and this time, I'm not gonna lie.... I'm hurt.... and incomplete..... The day is gonna end and I did not hear a single thing from him... sucks!

well, today, mom just ordered pizza and yeah... we had cake.. well, I'm gonna prepare something for church on Sunday anyways... so yeah.... well, still fun.... and now that the family who living in our house with us last time had gone back to the Philippines, life would be back to normal again. Silence at home and all. Yeah. Well, guess that's all..... bye bye

happy birthday to me again! :)

catherinejoyloves!:)

My day

Shary said I should post thing about my days... well, hmmm... today, I had CCA... and I'll say this again, IT IS SO TIRINGGGGG!!! Yeah. then like no energy, teacher already saw we have no energy left then she still asked us do..then we heard the SYF music for the first time today, then she got mad for so many times! Keep complaining, changing steps here and there...like so what sia, then expect us to be sort of perfect by this Wednesday! like what sia! she think it's so easy meh? A lot leh! then scold scold scold some more! then yeah, after that, just yeah, came home and all... sigh.... yay! I going bowling tomorrow!!! woohooo! I'm gonna be 15 soon!!!! OMG! hahaha! bye bye pipz! Godspeeeeeed! :DD

love you lots!

catherinejoyloves!:)

Love

sigh... love is just so complicated... sometimes I wonder, does he love me as much as I love him? But they say, love expects nothing in return... but if of the two people, one loves each other more than other? Well, that seems complicated isn't? It's hard that sometimes you feel like you're the only one who gives more love.. or maybe you show more love and the other person is shy to express his love? It's hard. Well, that is why love is complicated...

I guess whoever says that love isn't complicated is not really in love as he/she thinks....

Oh well, that's all...

byes! :)

catherinejoyloves!:)

Keep Holding On...

Hey yo people! I'm back! gosh! been so long since I last posted huh? hmmm... well, lemme see, my boyfriend and I have been together for 6 months! whew! half a year! Longest boyfriend indeed! who would have thought that I could have a bf for that long! hmph! :D well, Happy 6th month again baby! :) hmmm... well, CCA is totally killing me man! SYF, CNY, hmph! so many! then still have the Friday one...aiyoyo... but nevermind, JY to me! :) haha! hmmm...and well, Harry Potter was showing yesterday for first day...and well, what's with people wanting to watch the movie for the first day? I mean, it's not like the movie will change if they watch it a week after the first day or sth right? I mean, hello! The movie will still be Harry Potter! hehe... no offence... just that, a lot of people watching, then if like, you make a noise, so many people will hiss at you or sth... >.<

Well, guess that's all for today! TTFN

bye bye pipz! Happy Reading! Enjoy!

I love you E :)