I am so confused

I love you. You asked me to let go. You said you wanted me to be happy. Told me to give him a chance. So I did. He loves me. It is you that I still want. So now I am confused. I do not know what to do. I want you back. You push me away. Tell me to love him. I can't force myself to love him. I can't. My heart just screams your name. Just..... tell me....what you still feel for me. It's hard already. If you tell me what you feel, all my problems about this will be over. Like, done! I'll be happy. Guess that sounded selfish of me huh? But you can't blame me for loving you. You can't blame me that I still want you. For wanting you back. With me.

So just tell me. All this will end. Please?

catherinejoyloves!:)

Merry Christmas

Okay, first of all, Merry Christmas to all of you!!!!

Okay, my point exactly.. I need to move on!y

I think I will forget my "no-boy-till-18" rule!

I do not care

I will move on with another guy

already have someone in mind :)

I think you will read this na....

Pinoy ka naman...

hahaha

yan....

inspired ka sana ulit pag nbasa mo 2 :P

kilala mo na cno ka? (you already know who you are?)

well, yeah...

that's all for now!

bye bye pipz!

till the next post...

I still love that guy though....

but I'm moving on

I HAVE to

I MUST

I WILL

:)

catherinejoyloves!:)

Emil :)

Hey, EJ :D

I do not really know you that much, but after talking to you for a few days na, you helped to cheer me up! I mean, your advices...listening to me ranting about ex and new guy, cheering me up and stuffs... :) Then yung mga bola mo...hahaha... giving me advices about boys... hahaha... in return of my info about girls :D thanks dun.... for telling me what love is for boys...that a boy will do anything for a girl as long as it is true love... couldn't agree more :) and yeah..tapos, ano pa ba? Basta, lending ears.. :) I have told you more than I would tell an ordinary friend...from being my kuya Emil to just being Emil :D then, for saying na maganda ako even though hindi 22o! tapos, for complimenting my blog :) hahahahaha

yan.... many more stuffs to thank you for....

Thank you!!!!!!!

catherinejoyloves!:)

Life as we know it...

They said that everything happens for a reason. The bad ones in life, they happened for a reason...and after that, there will be a lesson learned? Is this it? Is this the lesson of it?

After breaking up with you, I was hurt. Like, last time, I could just get up, and move on. But it was not like that for you. It was...harder. Much harder. I did not know what to do. Felt like the world was gonna end. I thought I was going to be sick...like fever and stuffs.... then yeah. I just... really loved you. I'm still learning to let go. Then just moments ago, you were talking about her. How fun it is being with her. Yeah. It killed me. So ouch! But I am not that strong. But afterwards, I realized, is this my lesson learnt? To be brave(or try to be) while listening to you talking about her like your whole world revolves around her? Is that it? That's my lesson?? Wow! I can't believe it! You taught me a lot of lessons I never knew I would learn.

That I could do my best to be strong and brave as I listen to you talking to me about her...how fun she is...and stuffs.

Thanks for yet another lesson learned....

catherinejoyloves!:)

Single again

Hmmm...well, I'm back in the Singles market!
so yeah... I broke up with the new guy...


to new guy,
sorry if I had to do that. I just had to... so yeah..

By the way, who on earth is the Mayor of Singleville???

Sign me up!!!!

catherinejoyloves!:)

Protect you from the pain...

hey guys!
I liked this song!
We did the first few parts of the song for dance just now... we also did "telephone" and "Bad girl, good girl" by Miss A.... and now my whole body is in painnnnnnn!!!!!!!

well, enjoy the song yeah!
bye bye!
till the next post...



:)


catherinejoyloves!:)

10 ways to Deal with a Break-up

Hey guys! saw this in the book I was reading.... maybe it will help?

1. Cry---get the emotions out. You'll feel better afterward.

2. Write in a journal. Putting your thoughts and feelings into words is a healthy way to work through them.

3. Exercise. If you're anything like me, getting your butt to the gym or out for a run is hard. But afterward, you'll feel great. Exercise increases serotonin in the brain, the chemical that makes you happy.

4. Listen to boppy, happy music. If you keep listening to sappy ballads, you'll never move on.

5. Get rid of as much evidence of your ex as possible. Take pictures of your wall, move emails from your inbox, put away old letters(if there is any) and gifts(if there's any also). Put them in a box in the back of your closet if you want to look back on them 20 year from now.

6.Make effort not to hang out at the same places you did with your ex, unless, of course, they are your favorite places and don't want to give them up.

7. Ask your friends not to mention your ex. You don't need to everything he's doing or who he's doing it with.

8. Open your eyes to the possibilities around you. It's never too soon to appreciate eye candy!

9. Resist the urge to keep refreshing your feelings about the breakup. In the first week or two, vent all you want. After that, keep most of it in or write in your journal. Project the image that you're moving on. Eventually, you'll start to live with it.

10. Don't stay home because you feel depressed. Get out and party!

so where are you now? Guess I'm still in number 1 or 2(but 2 does not count as I do not keep a journal!) :D

well, yeah...enjoy reading this!!!!!

bye pipz!

till the next post......

lots of love

catherinejoyloves!:)

To my "unknown" readers :)

Hey! to those people who keep on reading my blog and yeah, appreciating my posts and yeah, taking time to read my not-so-boring-i-hope posts, well, thank you guys! I can't thank you personally so I guess I'll just thank you by posting this about you all :) I really appreciate it and yeah.... thank you again :)

My replies for you:

SexyGirl>> I will try to posts more often. Just lazy sometimes :) thanks for being a dedicated reader then :)

FarinaNice >> thank you :) Will keep up the good work then :)

ZaolaCute>> hmmm.... thanks! :)

NoritaNice>> err....Okay! :)

YumiSexy>> thank you!Already have my facebook link in my links :)

so yeah! thank you pipz!!!!! All the best!

till the next post.....

catherinejoyloves!:)

Get over it

Hey. Guess I'll keep being emo to myself. Well, they say that if you love someone, you should let him or her go and do things that will make him or her happy. Guess I'll do that from now onwards... If you really are happy with her and you really really love her now, I'll just get over it. Maybe not get over it that fast. But just let you go. Wish we could still be err...friends? hmmm...

well,

thank you very much for the love, thank you for the "i miss yous" and "I love you more(s)" and thank you for helping me prove to myself that I can be with a guy for more than 1 month(6 months actually) and thanks that you were actually my inspiration to achieve a lot this year... Wanting to prove my parents that you're not the reason for me to fail my subjects, I was determined to get high marks..thanks because of that :) Thanks also that because of you I knew how to love and thanks for showing me how to love and for showing me what love was all about and....yeah :) thanks for everything! Guess there's just a lot to thank for :)

Well, enjoy life with her.. :) Last long :)

P.S there's no sarcasm here :)

And oh, I kinda rejected 3 guys in just 3 days... guess I've got no suitors left :)

Peaceful life and mind for now! :)

Bye bye pipz! :)

catherinejoylovesyou!:)

In a Relationship with her????

I logged in to facebook and the FIRST thing I saw in my Home Page was E*** S**** is in a relationship with C****** R***! And I was like, wtf! I can't breathe... I found it hard to breathe. I actually thought I was going to have a damn fever!!! I did not know what to think about! I just want to dieeeeee! I don't know what else is there to say!

So.......... you already knew this huh???

From THIS F-ing day onwards, boys are so F-ing OUT OF MY F-ing Life.....

Thank you

*bows*

FML.....

catherinejoyhasaf-ingdaytoday!

You used to be MINE... what happened?

I saw him changed his display picture and yet he has not replied my message yet. That was so ouch! :( How I wish I was just as close to you.. I now wonder, have you moved on? You told me once that it was not easy moving on. Asked me not to be so emo.. but I guess, I still am.. I think you've already found someone. Someone better. Someone closer. Someone who will make you happier. But if what I'm saying is wrong. I'll ask you.....

Do we still have another chance?

I still love you. Still miss you. Still find myself thinking of you....

:(

catherinejoyloveshim! :(

When you say nothing at all....

Well, Why haven't you been saying anything? :(

Okay, my day...

ate Den den slept at my house yesterday and will sleep here tonight...last night slept at 2 coz ate Den had to review for exams... in the end, she decided that she did not want to take the exam and she did not go to school coz she had a headache... excuse much eh? :D Then after that, we went to church, practiced for Christmas presentation... then so tired lorrrr.... then Jess came home with us..we took pictures, eat, painted our nails, exchanged dresses :D etc..then she went home at 9:50 already >.<>

well, that's it!

Missing you till it hurts :(

catherinejoyloves!:)

Am I ready to let go?

Answer: No. I'm not. But I think he is. *heartbreaks*

catherinejoystillloveshim! :(

Heartbreak

Hey people, I'm gonna be emo-ing for sometime from now... well, I'm so f-ing heartbroken! I mean, hello! who would waste a 6 month relationship just like that right?? Well, apparently, me and him....but I still love him! then I don't know why suddenly from I love you became Bye :( but like they said, it's not the Goodbye that hurts. It's the memories that follows that hurts. So true. What I did today, I woke up. I cried. I went online. He did too. Then when we were talking, my g-damn tears just would not stop flowing! It's like, what the h*** man??? Then after the conversation, I cried again. Then I logged out after a while. Then after that, I went to the room. Listen to music. Damn music reminds me of him! Then I only ate chicken for both breakfast and lunch. No rice no everything. Then after that, bathe. Went online again. After a while, got tired of all that, I went back to room, listened to music.. damn tears! Then cried myself to sleep. Again. Then parents came back from work. Dad said my eyes swollen, asked if I had headache. I said no. He asked me where the pain is. I almost blurted out, "My Heart, dad"... but fortunately, managed to control myself. I just smiled. Then yeah. Sigh... I don't know what to do already. I'm like so EMO :( I don't know until when. :'( Just keep crying. MY friends said I need to let it all out. I said that's what I am doing! Sigh... First serious boyfriend. Longest some more... Sigh... I wish moving on was just that easy... It's not. :(

I know you're reading this. I'm sorry if my posts hurts you. Don't blame yourself. I love you. I still do. I'll never stop. Even though it hurts. I'm amazed on how much I still love you with all the pieces of my broken heart.

catherinejoyloveshim! :(

Happy Birthday to me!

Well, first I would like to thank all those who greeted me on my special day! love you guys! :D and thank God for this another year... when you're fifteen somebody tell you they love you, you gonna believe them.... well, I was turning 15 when he told me he loved me... and speaking of him.... sigh..... I did not get any greeting from him and it totally killed me! :( as in inside... My friend told me to be happy that even though he did not greet me, hundred people did... but I said.... it's so incomplete.... it's like, a puzzle... without that ONE missing piece, the puzzle can never be whole... there may be thousand of pieces, but that ONE is just as important as the rest.... some more he is one of the most important.... at least for Joanne I understand.... she's in camp... but.... I don't even have any idea where he is.... and this time, I'm not gonna lie.... I'm hurt.... and incomplete..... The day is gonna end and I did not hear a single thing from him... sucks!

well, today, mom just ordered pizza and yeah... we had cake.. well, I'm gonna prepare something for church on Sunday anyways... so yeah.... well, still fun.... and now that the family who living in our house with us last time had gone back to the Philippines, life would be back to normal again. Silence at home and all. Yeah. Well, guess that's all..... bye bye

happy birthday to me again! :)

catherinejoyloves!:)

My day

Shary said I should post thing about my days... well, hmmm... today, I had CCA... and I'll say this again, IT IS SO TIRINGGGGG!!! Yeah. then like no energy, teacher already saw we have no energy left then she still asked us do..then we heard the SYF music for the first time today, then she got mad for so many times! Keep complaining, changing steps here and there...like so what sia, then expect us to be sort of perfect by this Wednesday! like what sia! she think it's so easy meh? A lot leh! then scold scold scold some more! then yeah, after that, just yeah, came home and all... sigh.... yay! I going bowling tomorrow!!! woohooo! I'm gonna be 15 soon!!!! OMG! hahaha! bye bye pipz! Godspeeeeeed! :DD

love you lots!

catherinejoyloves!:)

Love

sigh... love is just so complicated... sometimes I wonder, does he love me as much as I love him? But they say, love expects nothing in return... but if of the two people, one loves each other more than other? Well, that seems complicated isn't? It's hard that sometimes you feel like you're the only one who gives more love.. or maybe you show more love and the other person is shy to express his love? It's hard. Well, that is why love is complicated...

I guess whoever says that love isn't complicated is not really in love as he/she thinks....

Oh well, that's all...

byes! :)

catherinejoyloves!:)

Keep Holding On...

Hey yo people! I'm back! gosh! been so long since I last posted huh? hmmm... well, lemme see, my boyfriend and I have been together for 6 months! whew! half a year! Longest boyfriend indeed! who would have thought that I could have a bf for that long! hmph! :D well, Happy 6th month again baby! :) hmmm... well, CCA is totally killing me man! SYF, CNY, hmph! so many! then still have the Friday one...aiyoyo... but nevermind, JY to me! :) haha! hmmm...and well, Harry Potter was showing yesterday for first day...and well, what's with people wanting to watch the movie for the first day? I mean, it's not like the movie will change if they watch it a week after the first day or sth right? I mean, hello! The movie will still be Harry Potter! hehe... no offence... just that, a lot of people watching, then if like, you make a noise, so many people will hiss at you or sth... >.<

Well, guess that's all for today! TTFN

bye bye pipz! Happy Reading! Enjoy!

I love you E :)

Music

Music is my sweetest escape....

hey guys....changed songs....hmmm..hope y'all will like it!!! byes!

catherinejoyloves!:)

Memories of You

Just now, even though I knew he was not here, not online, I still opened the new window for conversation, then when I was looking at the email address, suddenly, memories started to form inside my head. The first time we talked, which led us to our little arguments, the way I used to hate you for being "The Mysterious Guy", the silence for almost a year, when she told me he likes me, when I found out about it from him, when the like started to develop to love, then from one sentence messages to one long essay to say, the way he says he loves me, when he says he misses me, when he cant talk to me for a month, realizing that I've already fallen for him too,small arguments to quite big fights, circumstances(like his situation, those who are against us), then yeah. I felt tears coming so I just closed the window, I don't even know why, but yeah..... I've no idea. :( I just miss him and all.....

"Love is not about finding someone you can live with, but rather, it's about finding someone you can't live without."

catherinejoyloves!:)

I feel like I'm being paranoid....

sigh....feel like being paranoid....
Its just that, I've not been having a piece of mind lately...
I feel like everyone is taling bad things behind my back, even my bestfriends(its just sth I feel, I dont say that you do that)
Then I feel like I'm losing everything, like slowly, everything's being taken away from me..
Him, his time. We seldom talk. And it hurts. I dont blame you.....you can't help it that you're ill...
Then my friends, I feel like I'm being replaced...slowly, they're all being taken away....I mean, making their distance away from me.
Then my grades, they go down and down that I feel like I'm gonna lose my insanity thinking that all the efforts are not being paid...
Then what else? I just feel like nobody wants to be my friend. Like nobody ever wants to talk to me. Like they're using me.
Sometimes, I don't feel loved. It makes me want to cry my heart out. I need a voice that will tell me that its going to be fine. That I'm loved. That I'm wanted and not needed. That I'm useful and with a purpose and not being used. That I'm precious in his/her eyes. To tell me that what I'm saying is not true! That I'm just feeling all this and its not real! I need comfort! I need love! I need everything back! :( My friends, him, my loved ones....I need....A Piece of Mind. God! help me. This I pray. This I ask. Please. This, I beg you.


catherinejoyloves!:(

I love you

Two weeks..... hmmmmmm... I love you the most! :D





catherinejoyloves!:)

it's over!

EXAMS ARE OVER!!!!!! tomorrow's our 5th month!!! that's so long already! If I dont manage to talk to him tomorrow, I'll really die!!!!!! Well, I dont really have much to say anymore...... I'm so inlove!!!:D


catherinejoyloves!:)

A post

nothing..just for fun..long time no post...I'm still alive and need to revise for exams!!! argh!!!! :(catherinejoyloves!:)

Because of exams..

I wont be here for like one month yeah, exams are just so darn near and I need to focus......I might be a little mad at you but I wont hate you....just in case I wont be able to reply your messages, I'm sorry. Well, what happened to you this time???????!!! Sigh.... its just that, I really really miss you. I miss you until it hurts so much...................


catherinejoyloves!

You and I

I'm so upset :( message me already please? It's been 4 months...no longer a try. Really sorry that I will just be able to talk to you after my exams..it hurts yeah.

just now....
Me: wow! 4 month already
Mom: what thing?
Me: me and him
Mom: Oh. good...
Me: Yeah *smiles to myself*
Mom: so how is it?
Me: Good..
Mom: Good...
Me: still standing strong...
Mom: well, that's good :)

I love her man! :D she understood... haha...


and Shary, nice new blog :D
love it! :)

catherinejoyloves!:)

Hurts...

hey... I got so low for maths test! just pass!! :( I need to do well for Science and Literature! :( I feel like I'm gonna die! So many supplementaries.... sigh...then tomorrow English need to write essay... :( never ending sufferings... :(

but being so far from you, it's a bad suffering...knowing that those girls are after you, I want to be there and tell them, "Leave my boy alone"...but I can't....it's so...painful.... I miss you so much until it hurts.... I love you that I feel like my heart's just gonna burts with love and longing for you.... I dont know....


A quote I've seen once(not really exact):
"If you love, love until it hurts, the more it hurts, the more you love...love until it will hurt no more...." yeah. something like that... so random...




BTW, Happy Birthday to my beloved BESTEST FRIEND, SHARY!!!!

wish you all the best..thanks for being there for me always....study hard and yeah...love you best!!! :) thanks for the listening ears whether it's about my love or my problems..... getting older is part of life my dear bestfriend.. :P haha....



catherinejoyloves!:)

Us Against The World again....

catherinejoyloves!:)

Us against the world...

catherinejoyloves!:)

Oh please.....

Seriously, its already so bad enough that me and him can't be together...the distance is already unbearable enough, it's the like the distance from here to there is already against us...then why add more problems? All of you against us...like David and Goliath...there's just the two of us against "the world"....

To those who are so madly obssesingly inLOVE with him,

Sure, look at him all you want
Talk to him all you want
Tell him how much you so freaking love him
Tell him that I'm not even there
Try to get all his attention for all I care...

but he already has got his eyes for someone else
He wants to talk to me, not you
He already loves me and not you
He's in my heart and so he's in mine, who cares about the thousand miles in between?
His attention? all drawn to me...

so you're there, I'm here....
you see him, I don't....
You talk to him, I can't
all that, your win, my loss

but....

He loves me, not you
He gave ME his heart and not to any of you
He LOVES me, I love him too....
He's MINE, not YOURS...
he's taken, BY ME....
all these, my win, your BIG loss.....

so now, leave him alone, he's mine.....

catherinejoyloves!:)

My result slip

sigh...sigh...sigh....here's my result in my result slip...

English- A2
Maths- A1
Science- A1
Geography- A1
History- A1
D&T- A1
Literature- A2
Art- B4

I hate ART!!!!! sucks man! almost all A! >.<

bakit ba lagi mo sinisisi sarili mo? Wala ka naman kasalanan eh:(


catherinejoyloves!:)

This Day

yeah! just finished CMP test..phew.....just now saw my maths..I got A! yay! :D sigh...Jem said something happened..she did not manage to tell me coz I had to go... >.< wonder what it is...haiz...well...........I got A for literature also...good enough I guess? well...in school....so yeah.....bye bye bye bye bye!!!!! :D


P.S.! Shary! cheer up! I'll congratulate you of course!!!!!!!!!!!! and thanksssssssss!!!!!!!!! :D forgiven and forgotten!!!!!!! :D




catherinejoyloves!:)

Changed of blogskin

I changed blogskins:) When I saw it, I was like, "OMG! I think I'm loving the calmness of the ocean:)" so yeah....hmmm...my back pain sia...too much modern dance! OMG!!! Team Romania was in our class! most of their guys were hot actually..I think I'll upload next time:) well...I'm taken so yeah...:) haha.....guess that's all...dunno why Shary thought I still like my ex>.< sigh...... I dunno...I love my Eric:)

Oh I got two Eric! one is the one who own my heart and the other one is my cute teddy bear!!! so cute!!! my baby!!!!!!! :D


catherinejoyloves!:)

What I love the most

so many things I love about you. You really has a way to distract me, one moment I'm doing something, then I think of you then every other thoughts vanish and left only with the thought of you. I love the way you said you love me. :) I love everything about you. Let people think what they want to think about. I won't care and give a damn about it...you're the one that matters :) Its been 3 months...time flew fast with you. Just those 3 months with I love yous and I miss yous are like the greatest 3 months ever! :) and there's more to come :) I love you. I love the way you're possesive about me:) calling me your own :) Let those girls get jealous! I got you first :) and too bad I won't let you slip away just like that. No giving up :)

catherinejoyloves!:)

Worries..

Ugh! I dont know! I'm full of worries? Studies, someone, ugh!!!!! I would not want to fail in anything!

Well, after school, take lunch then go for CCA...good thing CCA is only till 3..but 6:15 come back to school then go for performance at UCC........hmmm...seriously..why does the brother have to be so agianst it???why does he want me to stay away from him? we're already milesssssss away from each other for goodness's sake! and how in the world does he know about us? why must he spoil everything? and the guy's sick man! sick! >.<



haiz.......

worriessssssss......... :(

worriescatherinejoyloves!:)

blog @ school

yo! am currently blogging at school..dont really know what to say..been pretty busy lately with things going on...so yeahh...left like a few more minutes before school finidh but later still got CCA...lazy>.<>.< sigh................... Shary not here..she WAS here..but she go to some rehearsal or sth...so yeah..what else am I supposed to say???? pssst..update your blog again please! :)

well..dont know what else to say...

sorry for the typos...

catherinejoyloves!:)

when I hear about the pains.....

Everytime I read about the pains you've been through...and going through...I cant help but feel guilty that I cant be beside you when you feel weak and down...I want to just reach out and hug you to comfort you..I'd give up anything just for that to happen...its like..when you tell me that you feeling too weak, I feel sad :( and you're past? its hard yeah..I wish that I dont give you too much pressure or anything...but Its great that you tell me what's going through with your life...I'll always be here to listen to you.... I'll do anything to comfort you. Because I love you. and you know that..... I'll always do.....


well...since you love it coming from me:
I love you
I love you
I love you
I love you
I love you
I love you


Andrianov Andrianov :)


catherinejoyloves!:)

my day..

today went to church...yeah yeah...the message was nice yeah...pretty touching.. :) well....I dont really have much to write..I'm having some headache now.. :(

sigh...Gabriel, Gabriel, Gabriel...the naughty boy who just dont want to obey...threatened him with cane also tell me "I very angry" as if I'm not? sigh...give him sweet and ask him to behave still dont want behave...ugh! kuya Eric(my leader) asked me to be more patient with the boy..but I had headache then for crying out loud! sigh....naughty kids....

at least you're not naughty..haha... you obey and behave :) that's why I love you :) or I'd say, one of the reasons why I love you :) yeah...we two are different.... she's a kid...and well...I'm....me :) haha.....


okay..... oh God....heal my headache!!! its so ouch!!! :(




I love you :)

catherinejoyloves!:)

when Shary say your name...sth happen:)

Shary no offence here..but just remembered this things...



1st scenario:

where: at Jean Yip salon at Westmall

when: when Shary just came back frm holidays

well..the person who was cutting shary's hair was a guy...and I was telling her about Eric and then I was using "ahem" to adress him...then on my first "ahem", Shary asked me who I was talking bout..so I said quite softly, "Eric"...then yeah yeah yeah..was telling her bout him when she said "Why you dont want to call him by the name? Eric right?" and then its like..suddenly the guy cutting her hair said sth to his colleage, but its in Chinese so I did not understand...so I said, "SHARY!" then she said, "Andrianov right???" and I was like "yeah!" then rolled eyes..haha...then when the haircutting was done, Shary asked why I think the guy said sth when she said his name..and then she said "do you think his name is Eric?" so I was like..."er..I hope not" and then yeah....in the end, we saw the guy's name card and his name was written in all bold letters...Eric Loh..........in my mind"SHAREEEEEEEEE!!!!" haha....first disaster....







2nd scenario

where:school hall

when: one of the assemblies

well..I think Shary asked me sth bout him or I was just saying sth bout him...and yeah..we talked talked talked..then suddenly she asked, "eyy Joy...Eric then sth sth(forgot tehe question" and then I said, "can u dont say the name?"..... then she said "the guy from Jean Yip also not here.." and I was like yeah whatever....Joanne and Lisa was sitting in front of us...then Joanne was in front of me..we were at the left side...then Shary was beside me, Lisa in front of her..they were of course, at the right side...then disaster strucked....there was a guy beside Lisa...a sec 2 student...his friend called him, "hey Eric......" and in my mind I was saying, "OMG SHARY! I'll "kill" you!" so yeah...







haha...see what happens? but no harsh feelings Shary... :) well...you Mr Typhoon....thanks for updating your blog..so for short, it was like... the girl's name was same as mine? haha! :)





well....till the next post :)







catherinejoyloves!:)

long time sincle last posted...

yo people...now at CMP class..nothing to do for lessons...we are supposed to be doing sth now but we could not coz sth wrong with the whatever that is...but too bad got rules to follow...and too bad one of the rules is no facebook!!!wah lao man! but nvm...haiz...after school then go cca...damn tired manx! I hope people will stop making noise then teacher wont screen or block us or sth >.< what else to do but to blog man! someonne also have not been blogging:( but I understand coz he's unwell....but still many thanks for "sneaking out" for me... :) and also, I dont think I could go online tonight...sorry orh... :( but just reply my message can already..then I will reply you when I could...so yeah....what else am i suppose to say? dunno what else to say :( guess this is all.....yeah..bye...............

till the next post.......
see you when i see you!






love yah ttm! :) miss yah...

catherinejoyloves!:)

hey hey hey yeah!

I'm tired...a lot of things going on...need to practice 6 dances for church and one for school...dear Lord, help me!!!!!!

oh Happy Father's Day dad!!! I may not get to tell you this but I'm blessed to have you as my dad..I'm sure a lot of people would want to be standing at where I am..having a dada like you and all...yeah..thanks for everything!

and yeah...finally talking again...really missed it...just now in church, tita Ara asked me if I was in love, and i said yeah..then she asked me what if someone ask me to be his girlfriend..and I was like...er..tita, I'm taken...haha....and tita Shirley asked me "joy..u have a boyfriend right?" and i was like "how u knw?" then she said i posted it in facebook..so i ended up admitting...then tita Rose asked me the same... >.< and yeah.....sigh....people had been asking me for the latest gossip...haha!


hmmm...yeah..and you, young man, hmmm...what should I say? I love you...and you already know that :) but I never gets tired of saying it..coz the more I say it...the more I mean it! :) I love you :) and I miss you:) so much... and you read my blog...but I got nothing to read on yours...update your blog b***..... :)

guess that's all...going to Jurong Point to buy shirt for anniversary and buy a new bag for school....ok... I got a few more minutes left....but I need see something else...hmmm......ok....


bye bye pipz! till the next thing!

catherinejoyloves!:)

hey....belated happy first month...supposed to be yesterday..so sad you're not here.. :( but yeah..nevermind..I love you...wish more months to come...

you're my one and only

hey baby..heard you're not well again..heard that something bad happened to you..please...stay strong and get well..as soon as possible..I will always be here...waiting for you..I wish we were not this far...if only you were nearer...I want to feel your lips on mine..to feel your arms protectively around me...I want you to still love me just as before..I love you wherever you are...Get well soon..for me? You're the only guy who has ever made me feel this way..You're my only guy...my one and only...the one who gave the meaning of love...you gave me the whole reason to love...you let me love and be loved...truly, love is not about finding someone you can LIVE WITH...BUT its about finding who you cannot LIVE WITHOUT...

You will always be the one who owns my heart...take my heart..its all yours...



I love you...I miss you...I need you. Here.

now I knw what you meant when you said you did not know how long it would take...and if I cant wait, just let go...but...its hard to let go you know...very hard...I'm sure you won't be able to as well...its not waiting for nothing...I'm sure if you would be back, every moment waiting was worth it..





catherinejoyloves!:)

Pictures speak louder than words....

catherinejoyloves!:)

R U 4 reaL????????







catherinejoyloves!:)

I was so bored today that.....

I just went to facebook....looked at pictures...planned to go out but dont know where..then after that went to buy lunch...after lunch read book....then bathe...after bathe read book...so altogether i read 2 thick books...so tomorrow...I dont care i want go somewhere...but still dont know that somewhere :( and nobody to go out with! wtf! i just wished i could tallk 2 him.... but idk...something's been bothering me...sigh...i just dont knw..i dont want to jump to conclusions....been waiting...bt nvm..guess that's enough for today...im in no mood............................ very bad mood................ bye!



Love yah.
Miss yah.


catherinejoyloves!:)

tired

sigh...woke up this morning my both legs were so painful :( so yeah...then danced in church bt then my skrt was loose>.< so did nt manage to finish one dance...ha-ha-ha....so yea...went to Nathan's bdae party after that....it was fun yeah....sigh...i wore high heeled shoes so now my feet in likso super painful! sigh.....he havnt reply me yet :(



I miss you.
I love you.




catherinejoyloves!:)

you dont want me to worry about u?

how could I not be worried if you're so sick? I care for you...like a lot.....I wish you were here....with me....then it would be a lot better for both of us....I also wait for you....but i would nt mind coz i know that there's still other way i could talk to you..how do you expect me to let go???????? i ask u, can u bear if I let go?????? can you?





I love you.


catherinejoyloves!:)

sians...missing someone so badly :( if u thnk its shary, well yeah i miss her...bt i dun mean her...ha-ha...

sigh...why oh why do u hve to be so mysterious? its like..yeah..ur past...it was difficult...in fact, i admire u that at least u could appear strong on the outside..though deep inside it hurts...bt still, maybe if it happened 2 other people, they would hve done sth really stupid...bt seriously, i cant make u forget about ur past yeah....bt at least, just know that I would always be here for YOU...its like, u said a lot of people try to read u bt then they fail, u said u dun wan me to, but then....help me not to? lower than ur walls at least a little? coz...it just feel like.....it hurts, I thnk that u treat me just like THOSE people...like, I'm nothing that special...i dunno...i wan u to be happy, for your sake, i know its hard...bt at least try to....i just want to know more and more about you..so please..allow me to at least make u happy...bt how would i be able to do that if know a little about the root of ur unhappiness and i dont know what will make u happy....i love you...i care for you...allow me.....please...for me?


I miss you
I love you
I care for you


I know your busy....I understand....

days suck without u :(

catherinejoyloves!:)

my body just can't take it any more!

man! i feel like i goin collapse! as in my body is just so painful! 8 hours of all those merciless dances????puh-leaze! its just so annoying! sigh...as in like...did a lot of practice..then most people which i not gonna say who are just so unfair! they also dont dance perfectly and yet they want us to be perfect?! what's that? some kind of stupid jokes? puh-leaze lah!get a life! its like our b*** was just so painful! like make a V-shape splitting in the air with leg straight? only the instructor could do that! they look at other people's mistakes and being blinded by their own? oh c'mon! like wtff is that? u can rest there and slack while we work our a**es off??? g-damn loh! well..too much for my anger...


good thng today the instructor was not in bad mood! we thought no push-ups or sit-ups! but holey sh*t! push-ups and sit-ups again lor! our bodies hvnt recovered from yesterday yet lei! wah lao! then yeah..now whole body is so painful!


btw, this morning, parents woke me up at 7:20 again...then went sleep..wake up, thought its ald 8:30..quick bath and etc etc..reacher school at "9:01"..nobody in the room, went to hall, locked. went AVA room, no people. went to stuff room see wafa...


Me: eyyy, today no modern dance???
Wafa: got lah!
Me:then where are they?
Wafa: that one 9 o'clock what!
Me: now what time?
Wafa: dunno, 8 sth i thnk

then i checked my phone..bl**dy f***ing f***! only 8:05!!!!!!!!!!!!
so i went canteen eat brekfast lor...then the day went on and on...yeah...



ok...that's all...hahaha....

beautiful? nah....

well...ok..gtg...bye bye pipz!

MISS YOU LOADS SHAREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D



ok! till the next thng! bye!

catherinejoyloves!:)

modern dance

ugh! I am so damn freaking exhausted! just now, morning, my parents woke me up at 7:20...then i slept again and woke up at 8:30! modern dance was supposed to start at 9! and i was like"sh*t!deadmeat!" so yeah..quickly bathe and all that...but then still late..on the way to school I was humming a Christian song called "The Lord Reigns"..and The Lord Bless Me! the door to the dance was not yet opened! it was still closed and they were still waiting for Mrs Loh to come! whoa! and lucky got dental appointment! geez quite pain sia! hehe..so yeah..during the first 3 hours...we just did WARM-UPS! crazy! normal CCA day..CCA is just supposed 2 be 3 hours! warm-up and dance combined! then after that went for lunch...then from 1-4:45 we did dance! man it was just so damn confusing!!!!!! :o dance this, count that and blah blah blah...so yeah.. the dance was quite ok but the teacher wants everythng 2 be PERFECT! siao..first day only eh >.< then from 4:45-5, it was "torture" time...we did altogether 80 push-ups, 80 sit-ups and all other exercice which i'm not keen to know what they are called..so yeah...went home exhausted to the max!!!!! and at least he replied! finally! so yeah..lightened up my mood...thanks a lot :) so...hmm...yeah..guess that's all for today lor...tomorrow modern dance again :( deadmeat!

Shary leaving tonight:( will miss her TTM!



kays...till the next post

catherinejoyloves!:)

yesterday and today

hey there pipz! sorry did not update ytd...was so busy...well....went to church...had practice for anniversary...then went to tom and stefani 2 buy gift for June Rose coz it was her bdae yesterday...so yeah...i decided to take the comfort bus....then i waited there for almost an hour...then no comfort bus came..comfort indeed(yeah, right)... then on the place there got no chair..then it was like...got dustbin beside me then some dude just finished smoking and ugh! the smell was just so *puke*...so yeah...decided 2 take 173 instead....and taking 173 means i would have to walk up that mountain/hill again...then on the way...the bus kena accident...the driver bang a car(the owner was a malay) then they talked for like 15 f-ing minutes....and then after that reached shary house at 4...i was supposed to be there at 3 lor>.< so yeah...call me lucky...not. then btw, reached shary's house, found out that there's no comfort bus on sundays! g-damn! shary forgot tell me! aiya..so yeah...we played games..we were like the hosts(hostesses actually) for the games...then dah dah dah....very tired...then for the FIRST time! my parents allowed me to sleep over at shary's...so yeah..we slept at 12 sth already...then she woke up at 9 she woke me up at 10..haha...to think she used that giant soft toy to wake me up! tsk tsk tsk...then yeah...we went swimming for a while...i helped her pack her stuffs(she leaving for Holland tomorrow*sob*)....then yeah...after that went to jurong point to eat...then dah dah dah....then went home, pack stuff for tomorrow CCA...9-5....8 f-ing hours!!! well...nvm, so yeah...sad...waiting for someone :( but he not here yet:( what happened? where is he? its been 2 nights...2 hard nights...I MISS HIM! :( so yeah...ok....gtg...bye pipz!


xoxoxo
till the nxt post


p.s I will miss u LOADS shary!


catherinejoyloves! :)

2nd class position!

I'm back again...just came back from school...and I'm just so happy! here's my results:

English>>A2
Maths>>C5 :C
Science>>A2
Geog>>A1
History>>A1
Literature>>A2
Art>>B4
Home Econ>>A2
C.M.E>>A
I'm so happy! i got 2nd position in class! I'm supposed 2 be second...but after Miss Yong gave adjustments for aou english results, i had a B3 to A2! and that pulled my marks! so now I'm in 2nd position! sorry WY :( well....in the whole level I'm the 6th! yipeee! my percentage is 71.9! Praise the Lord! :D I'm just so happy! I did not expect this man! but well...its here...last night slept late...but woke up happy! coz the reason i slept late was because....well.... :) haha....i love talking to him... :) well.....which girlfriend would nt love to talk her bf anyways >.<

I'm not that pretty okay????? >.<
I'm far from pretty yah..what else?

hmmmmm....
maybe this is all...anyth else i need 2 say?

maybe no more....okie....bye bye pipz!

xoxox

till the next post! :D



"and I was like baby, baby, baby, oh!"

feeling random!

:D

I love .... :D



catherinejoyloves!:)

hey hey hey!

hello people! am back! hmm..well...disaster just nw! it was like wth! on the way 2 school..my bag kena spoil! and so what happened was that I was ALMOST dang late for dang school! damn damn damn! then gt CMP result...jia lat lah! EPIC fail! ugh! so....yeah...saw all my results...nice nice lor...lowest is C5 which is damned maths! hmph! bt then i very happy coz i gt 71.3 over all so i ranked 3 over 40 in our class! yippeee!!!! happy happy lor! :D so yeah....
tomorrow going changi airport T3.....tsk tsk tsk....lazy...then go back school clean classroom! hmph! then CCA after that! ugh! no rest???? :( june HOLIDAYS are coming! BUT.....need come bck 2 school...i ald said that in my previous post -.- hahaha! wel.....hmmmm...what else??


sad :( why isn't he replying me anymore? did i say sth offensive? if yes I'm sorry! I miss you! I love you! :(


catherinejoyloves!:)

hey! yo!

yo there people.... its been a long tme again... well....been pretty damn busy...with exams and all those stuffs... CCAs especially...ytd we were supposed to be dismissed by 4:30...teacher say we'll be dismissed at 5:00....then after that in the end dismissed us at 5:45 instead! then some more june HOLIDAYS need come back to school from 9 am to 5 pm! 8 freaking hours! to dance! man! we need come back first week of june hols and week before 2nd sem starts! wah lao...die liao! the good thng is well...pass all my exams :D

English Paper 2 - 41/60
Geog - 75/100
History - 76/100(i thnk)
Science - 67/100
Maths - 61/100(sucks huh?)
Literature - 62/100( 2nd highest there :D )
Arts not sure but my overall is b4...forgot what's the grade... -.-
hmmm....what else ah? nvm...forgot liao...haha

well.....maybe that's all....and I'm just so happy! but too bad i thnk he will be replying late at night already! *sob* so sad! I want talk liao! but nvm.... hmmmmm.....

yesterday was just so damn funny....
Mdm Maths 1e1 teacher and Mr 1e1 Form teacher(that's not their real name..i just dont want to say for privacy purposes...but 1e1 of course they know)


Mdm Maths teacher was inside the classroom making an announcement.....
Mr Form Teacher came to class..waited outside the window...then....

Mdm Maths teacher: Mr Form teacher you may come in

then everyone exploded with laughter! hahahahaha! to thnk that both of them are married...tsk tsk tsk! hahahaha! LOL!!!!

yeah...think this is enough! bye bye pipz! till the next post...

am thnk of deleting this blog and create a new one but maybe not now.... so yeah.... bye bye again!


xxx
catherinejoyloves! :)

I woke up happy this morning!

yeah...woke up and the first thng that came to my mind was "was I just dreaming when that happened?" well....nope...i was not..coz he still messaged me...hahas...well....i woke up and all m y thoughts drifted to him! He took up all the space in my memory already!!! but I love it :D love him in fact.....




catherinejoyloves!:)

Long Time Never Post

yeah...been very busy with school....coz of mid-years...its unfair that some school does not have mid-year....sigh.....but anyways,,,yeah,....I'm back..don't care about the typo error....quite lazy to blog actually....sigh....... wel...

typhoon.....where are you? never heard from you :( miss you.....well....you already know that.....sigh......


i dont want to break your heart...I love You.catherinejoyloves!:)

How come I cannot go facebook???

I cannot go facebook coz Internet explorer cannot display webpage....so yeah.....sigh...bad bad......nothing much to say...just went to church for youth service....never been there for like 2 months liao...so yeah..nth much changed..still the same...sat beside Wena.....yeah......nothing to say sia....last night did nt go OL so dunno if he went online.....so yeah......sad sad.....hvnt reply message also...so yeah.....nt that I'm mad....dun think I'm mad at you for that.... :) Id wat to write!! in class doodle....but everything i write begins with the letter "*" hahah! nt gonna say!he knws who he is.... :P


ok...here....



I.Love.You
I.Love.You
I.Love.You
I.Love.You
I.Love.You
I.Love.You
I.Love.You
I.Love.You
I.Love.You
I.Love.You
I.Love.You
I.Love.You
I.Love.You
I.Love.You
I.Love.You
I.Love.You
I.Love.You




nah......ok? maybe no...idk...




Love yah!!!




hahahaha....



catherinejoyloves!:)

Listen! I Love YOU!

I will always listen to you. I still remember all the things we shared....and i miss them too.....just like you....I'm sorry that because of ME, you have to break promises to your family....thank you for doing that for me...and please....like I said...you hve no idea what u do in my life....u complete my day...and feel free to ask me anything...talking to you is like one of the best thing that could happen in my day...u can talk to me about anything...and you NEVER make my day worse....well used to....when I did nt knw u like me...when we just met....u kept on saying "nothing" which really pissed me off...but after knowing about u knw wat.....well.....your "nothing" is sth that ald makes up my day...as irritating as it is...it jst feel good when it comes from you....and when I am down....I want to tell you...coz I want YOU to comfort me...anyth u will say....just to comfort me....I would love that.....for sure...and I do not want to hurt you..dont be embarrased of yourself...and please....when its me....say anyth u want......do not hide a thing...if that will just bother you...don't hate yourself..and you are NEVER the reason why I am angry....I just hate those B**ches....and just say sorry and you are forgiven.....i dun knw how but wen u love the person.....u forgive him no matter what...ur forgivable...and please...talk to me....just like last time....forget this fight...I cannot and will not forget you...I will never treat you as an enemy.....and YOU SO DO NOT SUCK! will never forget you!




I.Love.You..




How many times do you need me to say that???


catherinejoyloves!:)

yo!

sigh.....just nw went to G1 after service...then like after that super bad mood! sorry to those affected.....sigh.....but yeah..after that ate pizza..Jess accidentally broke the glass.....lucy never pay..........so yeah.............2mrw gt Scinece class test! dang! argh! was nt really prepared...sob sob........but nvm....argh! 2 days hvnt talk 2 him:( I want to talk 2 u ald! wer r u????miss u liao............talk to me eh........hahahaha......so yeah....I 'm weird.......nvm bout tat.........gtg...........bye bye!!!!!!!!! muax





catherinejoyloves!:)

the love i found in you

catherinejoyloves!:)

Nakakainis ka!

sorry to those who do not undersatnd this but I have to....


Nakakainis ka! galit ako sa iyo! ni minsan sa buong buhay ko, hindi pa ako naduduraan! samantalanag ikaw, ano ba kita? bigla mo dinuraan palda ko!!!! kadiri ka negro! sunog! naovercook ka lang kasi sa oven eh! buisit ka! eh kasalanan ko ba kung bigla ka tumingin nung sinabi namin yung salita na yon?? tanga ka rin pala eh! titingin-tingin ka hindi ka naman pinaguusapan! pasalamat ka di kita sinumbong sa teacher! or sa DM para pagalitan ka!eh akala ko ba bawal dumura kung saan saan lang dito sa bansa na to??? abnormal ka pala eh! tao ung dinuduraan mo! ano ka duling? or sadyang TANGA ka lang talaga! buisit ka talgang sunog na negro ka! kainis kainis kainis!!!!!! alam mo ba gaano kasakit un????nasaktan pakiramdam ko dun!!! pakiramdam ko ang baba baba ko ksi dinuraan mo lang ako ng ganun lang! kahit hindi ako natamaan, palda ko lang, ako pa din ung pinatamaan mo ng dura mo!!! negro ka nga, duling na, tanga na, DUGYOT ka pa! WALANGHIYAKA!!!!!!!!!unggoy ka!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! sana hindi kita naging kaklase!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!DUGYOT KA KADIRI KA!!!!!!!!!!catherinejoyloves!:)

LONG TIME NEVER POST!

I am very very sorry that I hve never posted for such a loooooooooooooong time! been REALLY busy!
and quite lazy to blog -.-....so many things to say but too lazy type...haha.....so yeah...well......dun knw wat 2 say....just "finish" with STUPID art! it wa such a pain in the a**!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!lemme tell u this.....if ever you see me with a beautiful art, its either I asked someone to draw for me or ur DREAMING!!!!!!coz seriously.....I cannot stand doing art!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and just now we stayed back from 3-5 for maths leh!! damn it sia!!!!ugh!!!!!!!!! I so DO NOT like a lot of subject!!!!!!ugh!!!so yeah.......and just nw english lesson radin was so funny sia....coz we practicing for oral so teacher showed one picture...then the picture gt show one old man then a dog ON his shoulder.....budden from Radin, it came out this way:

Radin: There is a dog on top of the old man..........
Miss Yong: hey Radin! what on top of the man?u knw what's the meaning of on top of the man or not????!!!!!!
Me:eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeewwwwwwwwwwwwwwww....*laughs so loud*
Miss Yong: so Catherine....u got it so fast???
Me:*uh-oh* i heard from the guys one!
Radin:what?!

hahahahahaha! on top of the man! WTH!



then another one this time it was Cheng Jun a.k.a CJ
the picture was a picture of some guys getting a haircut in school as a punishment



Cheng Jun: The man on my left hand is wearing a long sleeve shirt and a long pants..........I thnk he should wear a sleeveless shirt.....
everyone:*LAUGHS!!!!!!!!!!!!*

hahahahahahahaha......then....
Miss Yong: ey CJ! u might as well say that the man should cut hair TOPLESS!
whole class: yeah!!!!

in my mind: what?tank top?????

hahahaha!!!!!!!!!!!



as in super funny today....
and me, Lisa and Shary always go together for recess and lunch! and Wei Keong also!hahaha! and we always laugh so loud!!!! we talk about crazy stuff! and we sometimes talk like Miss Yong ald!!!!hahahahaha....



anyways,....in love life......hmmmmmmmmm.........



well........he ald talking to me! a good thing! hahaha....
yeah....
tired of typing..
hahaha....


maybe gtg now.....

nxt tme again...maybe....

hahaha.....
so yeah...
bye bye...!!!


p.s..........dear art...u r so not dear to me! and i just want to let u knw that I hate you to the crust!to the mantle!to the core! and to the INNER core!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!ugh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!




hahahaha!!!!okie!!babayyyyyyy!!!!!!






catherinejoyloves!:)

not even one has lasted for a month

ugh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!wat now??????idk.................well...maybe face it! catherinejoyloves!:)

Bad Day

ugh!!!!!!!!!!its like such a bad day today coz at frst in the morning...I left my thumbdrive at home which contained our science project...so my grandpa went bck home, took the thumbdrive then went to my school and then yeah....good we got it....then during recess, Lisa ald started eating with me, Shary and Wei Keong...and so out of the blue, the WK suddenly in a bad mood...won't even talk 2 me....then I found out that someone is like saying things about 'us' lor! for those ppl who talk behind my back, I only have one thing to say..."THANK YOU FOR MAKING ME THE CENTRE OF YOUR ATTENTION!" yeah.......its like c'mon dudes! for goodness' sake, MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS!not like I am taking sides but its just that....I just dont wan to deal with ppl right now.....so leave my PERSONAL life ALONE! especially that girl.....if you don't want me to spead rumours about you....then dun start to make my blood boil...because I tell you....I can spread thngs about you too....you don't really know that much at all! u only knw the half truth! so since u dun knw everythng....dun start saying sth...coz nt only are u hurting other ppl, ur just making ppl angry at u! so c'mon! mind your OWN business! dun mind others.........if u dun wan others to mnd yours........simple as that....easy as 1,2,3 and A,B,C.................


geddit??????????????




good..............




ok......I hve said my piece....bye bye



till the nxt post....bye!



catherinejoyloves!:)

sorry

long time no post liao....I vry lazy....even nw...i just want to post sth...haha....sigh....2mrw gt Modern Dance sia...I dun wan go coz of some reasons sia....haha....anyway...just nw......during Literature period, sth nice happened...haha......nt allowed to say though....peace.....haha....so yeah.....sth much lor....go home messaged a lot sia....good thng I using unli message....bt sorry Shary coz u paid so high...:( really sorry besh........maybe we should cut phone talking a little bit....maybe 30 min as maximum..........yeah......so yeah...............idk wat to say!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!hahahaha...maybe I post again tomorrow.......yea yea yea...bye bye...

gtg....
muax.....
xoxoxo

catherinejoyloves!:)

blogging during lesson

yo! today our CMP teacher did nt come so we can hve our free time...bt no Facebook...haha..but anyways..yeah....7 rules to follow....if we dont obey one of them..teacher will lock all systems..so yeah....nth much 2 write....never blog 4 quite a long time ald! so yeah....sigh...yesterday went bowling..i did nt even strike lor.....*sob*..then i almost lost my balance 4 lots of times...ugh!!!and gt my new guy obsession.....KYLE XY!!!!so hot and handsome!!!!haha.....he is Matt Dallas btw...hehe.....so yeah...sigh...so bored...dun knw wat 2 write..........yada yada yada...............................and the guy hvnt replied me yet lor..............very bad.........sigh..................I wan go FACEBOOK!!!!!!!!!LOL!!!!!!!!!bt nvm lor...................so yeah....after this is Home Econ........die liao.........*sob*



ok....gtg..........



ttfn!!!!



catherinejoyloves!:)

A REBUKE!

ok...just nw gt my report book liao....at frst i was upset about it.....then during modern dance....people were telling me it was good and dun fret over it.....yada.....yada,.....so yeah.....then before PNP, I did nt want to go to church coz very pain mah! then...during PNP, God's presence was really there...I mean...........


Pastor Rose:let's all think of the good things the Lord had done for us.....in our lives.....etc....
and then I was like.....thinking....


and suddenly...I realised....there's a lot to thank for....

my life, my friends, my family, and the most important thing....he chose to call me as his own....I have a lot.....



and then...I feel like......I heard sth...or smeone said....

"why are u nt content about the things that you have? most people want to have what you have now..........ur marks....it was good..and yet,...u still complain....people are lower than you....and all that.......and also....body pain? Joy.........most people are not even able to walk....they are disabled.....but yet..they still thank God.....and you? and etc...."

then it was a big OUCH for me,.....coz its true...I hve been complaining and complaining....oblivious that ppl around me want to hve what I have.......and yet......I still...dare to complain and they can give thanks! and I dun really think i even deserved what I had gotten......

its like....I "forgot" about God and...all that.....but yet....


THE STEADFAST LOVE OF THE LORD NEVER CHANGE! IT IS NEW EVERY MORNING!


and he pours blessing upon blessing on me........


I should thank him instead of getting upset over those things!!!

thank you Holy Spirit for rebuking me!!!


and after PNP....a lot of people received a vision.......that a lot of people are coming to GFM worshipping the LORD and we are moved to a big place! and the Lord was like telling me......we should do sth about it first....which is to be the farmers in the harvestfield...to be fishers in the sea......


so yeah...


catherinejoyloves!:)

hurts

sometimes you don't realise how much you care for someone until that someone stop caring for you



three words.........its not wat u expect...... You.Broke.Me.


I'm broken like the waves on the cliffs...



If you were to ask how many times you ran through my mind, I would only say once because you never even left....


just because my eyes don't have tears....it mean my heart doesn't cry...... :'(


words are not enough to express the sadness and the emptiness and the loneliness I feel without you............so my tears express them for me....tears are word that our hearts could not express.......

I close my eyes...and dream of you and I and then I realised..there's more to life than only bitterness and lies....I close my eyes....I;d give away my soul to hold you once again....and never let this promise end.....


I wrote your name in the sand but the waves washed it away..... I wrote your name on my hand but I washed it the next day.... I wrote your name on a paper but I accidentally threw it away..... I wrote your name in my heart and forever it will stay..... ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

long time no post

yo guys! so yeah...dun really hve much to say....damn tired......yeah...Modern Dance was a pain in the you-knw-what....but good thng its still fun....so yeah.......I dun really knw what to say coz yeah....like I said....I am tired...If I continue writing...I will end up writing thngs that will make me sound so EMO.....but I guess I might become like one.NOT.hahahahahahahahaha....so yeah...dun really knw wat to write...........sigh................i wan rest liao....sort of rest lah........I will post maybe tomorrow or weekends.....then I will post long post:D


hehe...
and the internet connection was so ugh!!!!


so yeah....
I go frst luh...
bye bye bye pipz!!!


c yah wen i c yah!









I.Still.Feel.The.Same.




catherinejoyloves!:)

Sunday is NEAR!!!

*sob* *sob*

SUNDAY is TOMORROW!!!! I dunno...its like....i dun knw if I can do my dance...i mean....ugh! disaster..I practices dancing a dance I was not supposed to! I mean...its like...I can dance 1 until 3rd song....but then...they swapped the 3rd and the 4th...so i did practiced for the 4th!!booohooo!!!!!!! sob sob.....and one more reason is that..I ald made a deal...if by Sunday...HE still dun talk 2 me.....then I will probably give someone the chance....but it feels so sad doing it! coz....I dunno if its just that easy...so yeah..my friend said test the guy if he really like me.....if he can w8 4 two months 4 me, then he really like me...but if he can't then.....he is nt worth of my time....so yeah...if by Sunday(which is tomorrow) he still dun talk 2 me....I might consider.......the guy here.....but...i really........like......the...one....i....want...to.....talk...to...me.....by......tomorrow.......
so yeah! so PLEASE! TALK 2 ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!or else.....booohooo.....

bt....then...I said to this friend..that sometimes...I feel like....THAT GUY dun really like me.....
she said yeah......so i asked her of she agree......


and she said............




sort of..................




my heart broke into millions of tiny pieces that time.......that moment......its like................the world..............and my heart....................and THOSE dreams................they all shattered around me..........inside me............and I could not do anything but feel helpless................


not like I am blaming the girl.....................


but I need.....................assurance from THAT GUY.......................



then I will now whether to HOLD ON AS TIGHTLY AS I AM HOLDING ON NOW...............
or.......................



I hate to say this but......................



TO LET GO................................



so I hve to talk him before I make a wrong decision.......................

I hve gone too far to turn back now................


I have fallen tooo deeep already that it would be hard to go back again....................



so tell me......................



do you still love me????????



should I hold on? or let go(which i NEVER want to do)?????????????


and PLEASE answer me before SUNDAY!



and you told me once...that u feel like I don't care about you......but u r WRONG! coz I care....... and I care because....................................................



I.Love.You









catherinejoyloves!

a damsel in distress...another lost princess....

yo.....hi.....I like my new "name"...haha....."a damsel in distress...another lost princess"......coz i feel like...that is what I am...I aM juSt a dAmSeL in diStrESS.....jUst aN0thER L0sT prINceSS......waItINg aNd w0NdErINg .......wHeN wiLL a kNIgHt iN shINIng aRm0uR c0mE aNd rEsCUe mE fr0M aLL mY diStrESS................so yeah...and wondering who will that be....sigh.......I feel like I will always be a damsel waiting for something...even though I know that nothing will come....so I am just hoping...so yeah......poor damsel...poor princess.......will always just be bye herself........so yeah...if ever my knight in shining armour will come........then that's good....but...maybe.............sigh....I wont finish it..............


till the next post....
bye bye pipz!
c u .....



to my future knight in shining armour.....I will see u........


bye bye.....




yours truly,
a damsel in distress.....another lost princess......




catherinejoyloves!:)

You never said goodbye....love love love the song!

i so love the song!!catherinejoyloves!:)

ALICE IN WONDERLAND!

lol...just nw after i woke up...slack 4 while then read my book...haha...after that is bathe and then meet Jess at Westmall...we watched Alice in Wonderland......................3D....very nice sia....haha...love the movie...LOL....then yeah.....while queing up..saw some ppl frm my school...one of them is WeiHao...LOL......so yeah....idk wat else 2 write......someone was kinda flirting huh(??)....i hope not....hahaha.....bt he is just here in SG...i dun wan MY guy getting the wrong idea.....ha-ha...watever..........so yea.....Internet connection is so damn slow!!!!like....wth!!so yeah..i dun wan sleep yet lei..............:( not even sleepy u knw....sigh........why are parents unreasonable sometimes? sigh...........i really wan to talk 2 him.........................*sob*!!!!!!!!!!
he makes me happy.....like....no other.....hahahahaha......


so yeah.....guess this is all......ver lazy...sigh......so yeah...

bye bye pipz.....
till the nxt post!

so yeah...

P.S: The Guy's MINE and MINE ALONE!!!!!!!!!!



catherinejoyloves!:)

freakin' childish

sigh...ok...quite pissed today actually..coz u see ah, just now after church, we went to pstra Rose house coz her bdae mah......i really thought that THAT guy would nt be there...bt then...after i finish my food, i went to my fren's room....then only to see him cming out of the other room!!!hmph! why oh why???so pissed with him...he was so DAMN freakin's childish!!!!!!!I did nt even say his name..bt he said mine!!!!!!!childish sia....and he thought i still like hime??!!!!huh.......my foot lah!!!!!!!!! I would nt waste my time thnking about him...I would rather think(whuch is a very good thing) about the guy I REALLY like than HIM lah! hmph! nw i knw why my fren hate him! ugh!!!so yeah...wen Jess asked me out, i was glad to be outta there!!otherwise, I would hve ugh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!he is so immature, naive, childish!!!!!!!!ugh!!!he thnk he so handsome ah.....whoa!he handsome pigs like his arse lah! ugh!!so totally pissed!!!haiz.....ok...so yeah.........went to westmall with Jess..haha...ate desert...lol! nvm bout the spelling lah! haha...so yea....no school for a week...bt gt projects and LOTS of those HOMEWORKS!!!can't they just give us a break?????????????????????????????????????sigh..........................so bad!!!!!so yeah....idk wat else to say! I wan to talk 2 HIM(not the one who pissed me off)!!!!!!!!!!!!!



P.S: I so do not like the HIM who pissed me off...the guy from my church......



so yeah..gtg...
bye bye......
hugs and kisses......




till the nxt post!


xxxxxxxoooooooxxxxxxx

catherinejoyloves!:)

why is it like this? it is NOT supposed to be like this

why???
u say sth and wen i ask u wat is it.....u say its nothing.....
u keep thngs.....from me......
it hurts...............
u still put a wall in between us.....
can u just lower that wall???
please....for me?????
its like...sigh........
oh gosh......
it hurts wen u keep thngs from me.......
idk......it just sucks....
u dun suck.....its those thngs u keep frm me.....
they suck..........

so i gtg....bye bye.....

catherinejoyloves!:)

nth to blog about

yo!!!nth 2 write lah actually......haha.....nth much happens...actually quite a lot of thngs happened...very lazy=.=.....lol...so yeah lah......went to westmall with shary...went 2 the library....yeah...finished one NICE book! haha...so yeah.....then printed our pictures...NICE!haha....so yeah....idk wat else 2 write!!!!!!!!!!hahahahahahahahahaha.....


ok.....gtg liao......bye bye lor.....

till the nxt post......
muax
hugz and kizzez......



Tittle of the book: I heart you, you haunt me



kk.....bye bye!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!





catherinejoyloves!:)

Kayaking>>>>>>>>SUNBURN!!!!!!!!!!

just now went kayaking.......whoa sial lah...so hot sia!!!!!!!!!!!!!then lucky I partner with Nazift siol......or else...idk ald....at least he KINDA knows how to kayak lor....and wen we were carrying the kayak, 1e2 did nt do anyth eh.....sigh......1e1 all work up sweat leh......then Joanne really go and protest sia!!!cool sia....hahahahahaha........then yeah...Kayaking was FUN!!!!!!!!!bt then so hot.then its like.....now after kayaking..in the bus....most of THEM slept sia....haha....coz they all very tired mah...LOL...then after school went back to Shary place....we went there wif Wei Keong and Kai Kent to do theScience project..haha....then gt this scene:
Me: yeah......I so ugly...I knw...
WK: yeah...u knw only then knw ah?
Me: oh...I long time knw ald lah....
WK: yeah lah.....

so u see.....I am ugggggly!!!!!!!!!!



then checked FB....whoa sial...shucks man!!!!!!!!!what I saw there surprised me sia!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I dun need say lah....LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


haha........so yeah..i upload the pictures nxt tme....haha

I am so happy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



ok.........GTG..........bye.............
till the nxt post!!!!!




hugs and kisses for you my beloved......




ok...bye pipz.............


catherinejoyloves!:)

Pictures of today, in our hearts will always stay!1E1'10

here are the pictures of today!!!!!!!!!pls enjoy it!!!!!!!and if u gt problem coz i took stolen pictures of you all..I am so sorry......ok...tyty....enjoy!!!!!!!!










catherinejoyloves!:)